I Think About You - Unknown #Poem #BrainInjury #Anxiety #Escape
I think about you way too much.
At this point your a nuisance in my head.
Not only do you cause damage,
But also inconvenience me.
Sometimes it’s the whole day.
Sometimes my mind doesn’t even give you thought.
I remind myself
This isn’t anything!
It shouldn’t be anything!
But yet, you exist!
You’ve pierced your talons in me
So deep,
there is no time limit on the healing process
A process that repeatedly gets disrupted
Only to be punctured
by the same talons
who tore me in the first place.
I’ve learned to patch myself up
wait for your return
and fight off the vultures who pass by
The ones that want to see me loose.
See me break
See me cry.
Maybe they think I owe them
Maybe they feel entitled
Maybe they’re just bored
Either way
there is no stopping their vicious cycle
They will remain the same
Because that is their choice
That is what they thrive off of
But see,
That’s also how you will remain
Because you thrive off of it
Because you enjoy to disrupt the calm
Because you enjoy playing the game
You are okay with revisiting
You pretend everything is fine
You act like it’s not a big deal
And I,
Well, I allow it
And continue to pull myself forward
as if none of it ever happened
Yet my scars plead otherwise.