Judgement

This may not end up being a very well-liked post, but nonetheless I feel led to share it.

I pride myself on being a nonjudgmental person. I strive to put aside differences in favor of relationship.

This view of myself has recently been challenged as I am beginning to believe we all have a tendency to stigmatize others, even if it is subconscious, due to cultural upbringing. In the past several months, I have befriended two individuals, one of which practices a different faith than I do, and the other who has a lifestyle that contrasts with my traditional conservative values. My experience with them, connecting with them online and before I learned of these differences, has brought to light the fact that had I met them knowing of these differences, I would have been less inclined to see them for who they really are, amazing, thoughtful, and kind people. Before we point fingers at others for their stigmatizing beliefs, maybe we should look within to see if we, ourselves, are unknowingly doing it to others. This in no way excuses the stigmatization of others, just like their behavior in no way excuses ours.

"First take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye.". - Matthew 7:5

#TheMighty #MightyTogether #Stigma #StopTheStigma #Judgement #selfawareness

steer clears of negative blog post, to steer clear of the hateful and harmful comments from Happy Sparrow. But, I feel this post need to written. Today, in my newspaper an article about me was written about having an upcoming court hearing, which instantly bring fear of the wrong person seeing it and the repercussions. This is the second time I have appeared in the paper with my legal struggle caused by mental health. The thing that kicked me in the stomach was someone from my court hearing the other day, that was there for a domestic dispute in their driveway with a neighbor was plastered on the front page of the newspaper. This article painted him to be a horrible person. This made me realize that I will one day soon be front page news again. It’s a horrible thing that the media destroys the lives of people just trying to get on with their lives and better themselves. There is no remorse from reports making these horrible stories isn’t front page once enough. Back to my original comment about appearing in the paper today. I got messaged from people that haven’t talked to me since it occurred telling me that I am in the paper once again. It’s a sad thing that people that must be like this and pound more ridicule into someone that is already down. They say you must find strength from adversity, but it isn’t always the easiest thing to find. My mind keeps trying to figure out plans to deal with that final stake that will soon be pounded into my metaphoric coffin by the media. It says in the bible that, “Thee who is without sin cast the first stone” but you know no one that condemns me is without sin. The bible verse that reminds me that it is best not to seek revenge and to strengthen through the struggles and judgement is the bible verse, “ Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and wit the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

#Judgement #BipolarDisorder #BipolarDepression #mental health

Judgement - Bipolar Tater

I always end up just trying to explain the situation or myself, and I feel like she always takes offense to it, or that I’m judging her when it’s not true. It’s so tiring and every time I end up sighing out of frustration because of the same thing, she feels like I’m judging her, when really I’m just so sick of these little things that make us agitated whenever I try to explain something.

It clearly doesn’t help that she has two kids who are more blunt and rude and it can stress her out, which also stresses me out a lot because I hate their bickering, especially hearing it often.

I really want to just move out of here already so that we all can just move on with our lives.

#Sibling #tired #Judgement

This was a comment to a post I put in a Facebook group for abuse victims. I don't post my whole story because it's looooooong, there are a huge number of details, and I don't feel like typing all of that everytime I need support. Besides, no one ever really understands. I get judged, blamed, and it's all turned on me. I don't understand this, especially in groups for people suffering from abuse. I'm in an emotionally and mentally abusive relationship and can't leave. I mentioned I needed to see my cats, which aren't with me, because we're stuck in a motel, to explain why she mentions my cats. More about the situation with my cats, and the whole situation, is in some of my previous posts here. I have OCD, panic disorder, and depression, plus physical disabilities. I'm not lazy. I've cleaned, cooked, and done other household chores in the house we lived in and apartments before that. I've gotten worse, both mentally and physically. She doesn't know me, but she immediately seemed accusatory. My boyfriend had told me Saturday he was going to do laundry, but later claimed he said he'd do it when he got around to it. He told me he'd do it that day. He has money to do it: I don't. He did laundry yesterday. I got upset when I came back Saturday to find he hadn't, because I had no shirts left, had planned to go out, and I was going to visit my cats. Here's her latest comment, which is highly misinformed and hostile:

You have to visit your cats. Are you kidding? You claim he was supposed to do laundry. Nobody does laundry. All you have to do is put the clothes in the washing machine and the machine does the work. Then all you have to do is put the wet laundry in the dryer and the machine does the work. Then all you have to do is take the dry clothes out of the dryer and either fold your clothes or hang them up. Seems to me you're extremely lazy and come up with excuses.

I felt frozen when this topic came up. Fear that i have no values, shame and guilt for feeling indecisive about it and not knowing, fear of what could be my values, feeling helpless and hopeless about it and feeling resentful and angry about it. How do people know their values? What is the difference between values and beliefs? #Fear #Shame #anger #resentment #Guilt #BPD #helpless #hopeless #Indecisive #Judgement

So I have bpd (diagnosed) and have had it suggested that I have adhd due to manic episodes. When I’m feeling “manic” or “hyper” I struggle to control my volume and become bouncy. I usually feel happy but unfocused during this time. I hear buzzing sounds snd everything is bright.
People (family/friends) very often shhhh me or ask me to calm down when I’m like this. For me this triggers my mood switch. I don’t feel like I control how I am when manic and being asked to calm down makes me feel as though I’m being judged or that I’m embarrassing. It hurts and I’ve highlighted this. I understand that shushing someone isn’t that bad but for me it represents “be normal” and I end up self hating and feeling a burden. These are my people I jus want them to accept happiness for me is extreme and my behaviour is a lot but it’s part of me!! #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #hypermania #ADHD #Judgement