This is a video about my struggle with mental illness I made
Well idk from where 2 start but from probably 4 years I'm going through depression (probably I'm not diagnosed yet) and a lot panic attacks nearly everyday. In the last 2 years it was less like it happened only twice but since i lost all my friends and became lonely again it occurred everyday again and my parents noticed it so I went 2 a doctor 2 check if it's nothing clinical and I'll probably see a therapist 2 check and I'm really nervous about it (I'm still in school btw) I Rlly wanted a friend 2 talk about this but I don't have 1 so I'm looking online #Depression #Anxiety #PanicAttack #suicidal #EatingDisorders
I look forward to this group and each persons’ insights. About a month ago, I began having severe anxiety and panic attacks after being off my anti-anxiety for over 200 days. Coming off was a personal choice and I felt as if I was in a good place in my life to do so. I’m still fighting the anxiety and panic cycle and it’s exhausting. I know this is only a season, but sometimes I get so down on myself for not being able to do as others do without ruminating a task to death first. I get down when I think of how I use to be compared to how I am now. I feel as if I am merely surviving and not living. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve made progress and am a lot farther than I was a month ago. It’s just difficult for me to remember the progress, almost as if I don’t trust myself. Thank you for letting me join and God bless.
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Hi, my name is deathpath0o0 well I'm not diagnosed but Idk how 2 start conversations with people and they often get bored from me cuz Idk what 2 say and I get panic attacks nearly every day can't stop thinking about sh or being suicidal I have no friends and don't believe in luv n i lost interest in everything and can't concentrate in anything
I am about to be abandoned. It is something that is going to happen to all of the inner circle to teach us a lesson. before coming back…
He knows about my abandonment issues. He already emotionally distanced himself. Physical is next where he will be gone for at least a month where he won’t talk to us. So we can see what it is truly like without him, since we all took him for granted.
I am already on the verge of panic. I will be so very alone. Everything is my fault. This is what happens when I trust people and open up. I cannot breathe.
At least I got a warning by someone else, otherwise it would have been soooo much worse…..and it is going to be bad enough.
He knows this is my worst fear, him leaving.
Sharing-Pt. 23(Pt. 2)
Forgot To Mention That They,Eventually, Got Rid Of The Cat.
I Would've Preferred Them Getting Rid Of The Dog YET-At The Same Time-I Was SO Relieved That I No Longer Had To Deal With 3 Animals On Top Of ALL The Other Shi** I Had To Deal With!.;;;
Now, Onto The Kids.
The Oldest Child Viewed Me As A Threat & Was Jealous & Envious Of Me.
She Was Jealous & Envious Of Me Because She Had To Go To School & That Meant I Got More Time With Her Mom.
Didn't Matter That Her Mother Would Always Put Her Before Me, Would Rather Spend Time With Her Than Me, Etc. SHE STILL GOT THIS WAY!!.
Now, Her Mother Putting Her 1st Is The Way It Should Be-I'm Not Saying It Shouldn't Be That Way.
What I'm Saying Is That This Child Didn't Have A Right To Be This Way & To,Because Of This, Take Actions Against Me.
The Oldest Child,Also, Didn't Believe She Should Have To Listen To Me-Especially If She Didn't Want To.
The Oldest Child Believed She Shouldn't Have To Do What I Say-Unless She Wanted To.
The Oldest Child,Also, Believed SHE Should Be The One In Charge-Not Me-When Her Parents Weren't Around.
This Child Was Under 12 Yr.s Of Age.
She Took Action.
She'd Lie-Outright, She'd Exaggerate The Truth, & Tell 1/2 Truths-Where She Would Tell About What Happened To Her BUT NOT Why It Happened Or What She Did To Cause It To Happen.
Thanks To Her I Got Banned From Being Able To Discipline The Kids &, Even Though I Was Aunt In Title, I Wasn't Allowed To Be An Aunt.
I Went From Being On Level With The Adults To Being Put On A Child Level-I Went From Aunt To Sister.
I Was Expected To Keep Order-& Keep The Kids In Line-With No Discipline.
Also, My Oldest Niece Could Now Have Authority Over Me.
Also, She Became An Informant For Her Mother-When I'd Text Someone(other Than Her mother) She'd Tell Her Mother. Same For Calling.
This Way My SIL Didn't Have To Check My Phone Herself-Which She Had Done &, Also, The Threay Of Her Checking, Was Always There.;;
When I Watched The Kids I Also Had To Tend To The ADHD Animal.
When I Watched The Kids It Was Double Messaged.
Sometimes I'd Be Told To Just Watch The Kids(Also, The Animal-if I Didn't The Animal Would(sometimes) use the bathroom in its' kennel) & That'd Be Fine.
The Majority Of The Time, Though, I'd Be Told To Do This & There Was A Silent Expectation That I'd Get Housework Done As Well.
If This DIDN'T Occur Than My Brother, My SIL, Or Both Would Go On The Attack.
I Was SO Overwhelmed & DIDN'T Have It In Me To Deal With ALL This Shi** That Either I'd Use The TV Or Have The Oldest Child Watch The Youngwr Ones(Only For 5-10 Min.s) While I Dealt With ALL The Other Areas I Had To Deal With.
Because of My Childhood I Didn't Have Enough The Necessary Resources(& Capability) Withing Myself To Handle 3 Jobs-Housekeeper,Nanny, & Animal Sitter.
This Contributed To Destroying Me.
Eventually, Even Though I Told Them I Couldn't Handle What I Was Already Dealing With(Let Alone More) & They Promised To Wait Until We Moved Back, They Broke Their Promise.
They Had A 5th Child.
My SIL , With ALL Her F***ed Up Issues, Couldn't Handle Another Child.
I Don't How She Thought I Could, When She Ckearly Couldn't, YET She Did This & 1 More My Child Was What I Was Burdened With.
I Came To Hate & Despise Children Because Of This Expierience.
Also, I Now Expirience Severe-Bordering On Panic-Attacks When I'm Told Their Coming Over.
When Their Here I've Got To Double Up On My Anxiety Med.s-That's Usually Not Enough, Though.
I,Then, Have Double Up On My Anxiety Med.s For Most Of The Week Following A Visit From Them.
Takes Me A Full Week To Recover From Having To Be Around Them.
Today I'm Going To Mention More Accomplish.ents &, Then,- Tomorrow-I'll Start Talking About The 3yr.s That Led Up To Now.;;
I Can See Creepy Crawlies.
For Years I Couldn't.
I'm Still Able To See Them Now.
I Couldn't See Alcohol For The Longest Time-Years.
It Was Nothing But A Black Void.
Now I Can See Alcohol.
Also, Couldn't Get Beyond That To Actually Touching It.
When I'd Touch It I'd Have Such A Severe Panic Attack That I'd Black Out.
I'd, If Forced To Touch, I'd Use Tongs.
I'm,Now, Able To Touch It As Well-This Took Years To Accomplish.
'Ve Not Lost My Anility To See & Touch.
I Was Terrified Of Men.
I'd,Involuntarily, Shut Down & Go Away.
With Hard Work I've Gotten To The Point Where Men Only Make Me Anxious-This Is If They Sysy In A Zen-Like State.
If They Show ANY Negative &/or Volatile Emotion/s, Even If Not Directed At Me, My Anxiety Becomes Severe & I Start Having Trouble Staying Here.
I Use To Have Panic Attacks & Emotional Flashbacks In Regards To Clear, Light Pink,Medium Pink, & Dark Pink Nail Polish.
Now, Through Hard Work, I Just Get Anxiety.
If I Try To Wear It, Though, My Anxiety Becomes Severe & I've Had Emotional Flash Backs As Well.
I Got To The Point Where I Could Do What I'd Done-after the age of 12-& That's Wear Different Colors.
I'd Gotten To The Point Where I Could Do This Without It Affecting Me In A Negative Way.
In This 1 Area, Of The Nail Polish Issue, I've Lost Ground.
I'm Working On It & Hoping To Tegain Ground Soon.
Driving and Anxiety
Does anyone else with anxiety issues have any tips for dealing with driving-related anxiety? I’m 27 and don’t have a license. When it was time to get my permit, I found out I couldn’t because I was an “uncontrolled diabetic” in my home state. I now live in a different state where that isn’t an issue, but I get panic attacks every time I’m about to start driving. My husband wants to teach me, and I know he’ll be a great, patient teacher, but I’m absolutely petrified of it. Any tips or suggestions to help you with your own driving anxiety? Anything you can think of would be greatly appreciated.