shelterinplace

It’s weird, isn’t it? I’m an introvert, I enjoy being at home. I’m the friend that finds last minute excuses why I can’t go... just so I can Netflix and chill at home. This stay at home order due to Covid-19 has had me home entirely since early March. Slowly I’ve felt myself slip into depression but before I could get a grip on it, it’s full force! I have zero motivation to do anything. I just want to sleep everything off. I feel so sad about everything in general. I especially hate when people tell me “your life isn’t that bad.” It’s not. I have a good job. A good family. Yet my heart still feels empty and lonely. I’ve also realized that the majority of people don’t make the effort to check in on their friends. If I don’t reach out first, no conversation will take place. Anybody else?
#covid18 #shelterinplace

Apologies in advance if this turns out to be a long rant.
I rent a room from a woman who has a five-year-old. They, for all intents and purposes, moved out some months ago to go live with the woman’s boyfriend. 90% of her stuff is still here and so are a lot of the child’s toys and such. I get a decent deal on rent but not that good. She comes over to get mail with her child. He likes to start playing with his toys. I don’t blame him but he coughs and sneezes open mouthed and doesn’t really understand the concept of covering his mouth or using a tissue. At his age it is normal to get these colds and coughs and have his little immune system become proficient at fighting them off. But here we are in a pandemic and I have a compromised immune system and they’re coming over here a little more often because I guess they’re bored doing the sheltering in place thing at the boyfriends house. And the kid is open mouth sneezing into the air and mom basically does nothing. The other problem is that they aren’t taking Covid seriously, like a lot of people where I live. She and the boy are going to barbecues and social events with her boyfriend and I am certain they are not practicing social distancing or wearing masks. The boyfriend thinks Covid is a hoax.
I’m frustrated. I really need a place to live right now. But I’m not feeling very safe. There’s a chance she might come over today. I’m going to have to talk to her. And I’m not sure I’m gonna do it. Thank you for letting me rant! #COVID19 #shelterinplace #compromisedimmunesystem

Recently, people been talking about how hard it is to shelter in place and Of all the trials and tribulations of the need to address in order to adjust to this challenge. For me, this has led to me to try to think of the silver lining in all of this craziness..  I’ve discovered in my opinion this have a silver lining for those with disabilities requesting accommodations. The tools  They’re being experimented for distance  as learning They in fact be usable for people have disabilities in need of accommodations. For so long so many of us have been told that the use of electron a communications will not be acceptable for participation or attendance in group meetings. I believe the world will be changed after this in so many different ways however one way that we might see a positive outcome just might acceptance of the use of Technology as forms of inclusion for people with disabilities.

I really thought I'd be able to handle the "new normal", but too many things are going on that make it difficult to adjust. I've gone from having the house to myself most of the weekdays (I was already work-from-home before stay-at-home measures were put into place), with a relaxed routine of work and breaks, to both my husband and our son also at home, all of us here 24/7. Add to this that someone saw fit to shatter one of our home bedroom windows with a BB gun (thankfully no one was in the room at the time). This heightened not only my anxiety, but my son's as well.
Work is also tense - I'm blessed to have a pretty secure job at the moment, but feeling very underutilized and disengaged due to leadership.
These are things I could normally temper with trips to the neighborhood bar, an Aqua aerobics class, or even a staycation if it got too serious. Those are all on pause.
I'm already on medication (for chronic depression plus anxiety and insomnia), and I just want to make sure I don't do anything to feel worse (snap at my family, get so frustrated/stressed that I raise my BP, go into total emotional shutdown, etc.).
This is really just a vent - I know people have it worse, and I should be more grateful. But I feel like this is a place where some people will un how I feel. Thanks for letting me get it out. #Depression #Anxiety #shelterinplace