weed

Well. The title says it all. I'm officially quitting weed because I realized the problem I was abusing and addicted and numbing myself from my bpd. But now I'm day 5 clean. And I'm feeling clear headed more than ever. Positive. Motivated again. Let's say. Also some people are making it hard to quit weed. Saying I shouldn't or that it's not addictive. It is. Every drug is addictive. Especially if you have an addictive personality. But I want to give some advice if your trying to quit. Please don't hesitate to reach out and we can quit together. My bpd without weed so far isn't bad some emotional days but that could be withdraws still! #quittingweed #weed #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

I know its better to get it out than to keep it in so here it goes.

This is a guy who "likes" me and I guess is trying to impress me. I no longer use medical marijuana because although it helps my anxiety it doesn't exactly help my depression so I've taken other routes to supporting my mental health that have been working. I know he's trying to be nice and "joking" but possibly because I know him, this rubbed me the wrong way and I'll tell you why later.

Conversation on social media:

Him: Makes post on social media of sweet treats.

Me: You eat edibles now?

Him: I'm getting better so I can hang with you.

Me: I haven't done it in quite a while so you're way ahead of me.

Him: What! Are you okay? Do I need to make a delivery. Lol

Me:Wait...not doing eds means I'm not okay?? 🤔 Backwards nation we're living in lol 🥴

Him: Whats up, why u not doin well? Bc you haven't had any

Me: What?

Him: Haven't had any weed? I'm not bein fresh

Me:Am I suppose to have it? Lol I'm not being fresh either lol

Him: So what do want? Drink, food or other?

Me: I'm good. Thank you.

Him: Np ❤️ smarty 😂😂

Why did this conversation bother me?

#1 : When you tell someone you're not drinking or smoking and they ask you are you okay? My question is," Why do YOU feel the need to drink and smoke and are you okay?"

Nowadays when you choose to be sober in a drug addicted world, others see it as strange or you're the one who's not okay. 🥴 Weird.

#2 : When you tell someone you're not drinking or smoking and they still offer or ask do you want some?

This is my life and my journey. Of course I can always kindly and simply say no thank you but nobody should be put in the position to be questioned and to explain themselves as to why they don't want to do something that they don't want to do.

#3 : I have a medical card and can get marijuana whenever I need it. I told him I haven't done it in quite a while but he still offered me some. I don't need a stanger dropping off weed to me. This bothers me because people who don't have access or money would have fallen into this trap and taken off their journey not to mention the safety and security concerns. I especially want women to be careful in situations like this but everyone should use their best judgment.

#4 I get that I am who I attract and I attract who I am but come on universe what this be? Lol Right now I'm in my own little world, healing in my own little universe. I see situations like these as tests. I believe when you're moving into a new chapter in your life the universe will see if you're ready to move forward and im ready. Nothing is going to have me go backwards. Upward and onwards is the only direction I'm headed.

#5 Why did I relate this to being single? Because we would have never met and exchanged numbers if I was in a relationship. We met twice previously and never even indulged in any weed together. He's not a bad guy but trying to impress me this way is a major turn off.

Okay, rant done! Good night 🌃

#Depression #MedicalMarijuana #Anxiety #Dating #weed #single #Life

Smoking weed helps the influx of emotions to calm down. It does not however prevent me from partaking in risk, it just makes eveything manageable. I don’t actively want to stab myself cause I’m high af lol

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #weed #coping #Selfharm #Depression

I do not understand how it is legal to do methadone in my state and not legal to smoke weed.
I know my insurance wouldn’t cover it in a state where it’s legal but it’s still frustrating. 13 years of chronic pain and a brain injury… pain, nausea and anxiety all responds well to the one thing I can’t legally do ….
Just frustrated and and little annoyed tonight….
Tired of felling sick………... #Neuropathy #ComplexRegionalPainSyndrome #ChronicNausea #BrainInjury #weed

i smoke weed everyday alongside my mood stabilisers and antidepressents
my thoughts have been pretty extreme/anxious so im going to take a few days off smoking weed
does anybody smoke and get irrational thoughts ?
#BipolarDisorder #BipolarDepression #Bipolar1Disorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #weed #Smoke #Anxiety

ive been smoking weed everyday alongside my antipsychotics and depression meds
does any body else smoke ? im not sure if i do it for self medication or habit

#Bipolar #weed #Smoke #selfmedicate #PTSD

BRUH! Why is weed soo good to help the mind - especially at night when you trying to sleep?!
I have been “clean and sober” for like 6 months. And SHIT.. I am starting to miss it like crazy. I take forever to get to sleep. The mind races. And I just want to sit on my deck during the day or night, enjoy a joint and relax. Is that such a crime? I mean yes, I totally understand that it can make people blob out and become lazy. But I loved getting stoned and drawing, or doing housework or just going for a walk. Makes life a bit more ... interesting.. #MentalHealth #weed #Smoking