Back Pain

Depression leads to anxiety leads to stress leads to grinding my teeth leads to one hell of a migraine.

No 2 people are perfect together. There will be arguments and disagreements. But when you genuinely love each other you get through it together. Right now I'm upset and I need to calm down before I deal with it. She's been giving me space to deal with my brain weasels. But after I've processed my emotions, I'll be able to have that talk. Because I love her.

She just made homemade oat milk. I made some steamed sweet potato and put butter, Parmesan seasoning, and lemon pepper. It was freaking delicious!

Now Pauley is making pork chops. I explained how to cook them. My pain level is sky high and my depression is all encompassing. I'm going to make butternut squash to go with the pork chops. Maybe.

My cervical spine is really painful. My neck is grinding. The X-ray showed the vertebrae that butts up to the base of my skull is calcified. It explains why it's so stiff. Yesterday I sent a message to my spine surgeon asking if I can see him soon. I haven't heard back yet.

However I did hear back from my cardiologist. She started the email with "Mr. Caelum". I had asked if there were any safe diuretics. She said no, saying the risks outweigh the benefits. She said just use the compression socks, elevate my feet, and try to do leg exercises. Then she suggested I see a vascular doctor. She said I'm more than welcome to seek a second opinion.

I ran out of almond milk this morning. I've been using cappuccino powder to make it creamy. I've been drinking blueberry crumble flavored coffee. It's actually quite good.

We ordered groceries last night. They're getting delivered tomorrow . I ordered 5 cartons of almond milk. Should last about 2 weeks.

I really don't feel good. My tummy has been bothering me since yesterday. I took a ubrelvy for the migraine. I need a Norco for my back pain. It's at 7 right now. I'm still semi functional as long as I'm sitting.

So my day was a mess but had a few good things.

#Migraine #BackPain #Lymphedema

I've got a telehealth appointment tomorrow with my doctor to go over my lab results. They're pretty bad. She's gonna be cross that I haven't found an Endo yet. I'm on a really high dose of insulin. It's not helping. But it's making me gain weight really fast. It's kinda scary.

But I'm gonna talk to her about getting me a proper rescue inhaler. I've got dulera but that's just twice per day. When I go up and down the stairs or walk for more than 5 minutes I can't catch my breath.

I'm gonna get a refill of my Norco. I've been trying to contact my previous back surgeon but they haven't responded to my 2 emails and phone calls. As long as I am making an attempt, my doctor will refill my meds. I've only been taking maybe 5 per week. I'm trying to use my tramadol more often. I'm not addicted. And I intend on staying that way.

My doctor is concerned about my lymphedema and high blood pressure. I told her how my cardiologist is handling it and she's kinda pissed. The new meds aren't working. And I had a low symptoms day on Tuesday so my cardiologist thinks everything is fine. And even after emailing her pictures of my pitting lymphedema, I haven't heard back.

I'm so frustrated. And my anxiety is making me sick. I'll talk to my doctor about how bad my adjustment disorder is. Maybe she'll have an idea. She's a good doctor.

#COPD #Diabetes #ChronicPain #a1c #BackPain #Lymphedema #HighBP

Pauley was in the mood for salmon for lunch so she cooked some. I microwaved some potato smilies as a side for me. It was pretty yummy. But now my brain is completely turned around.

My back is trashed and my head is full of fuckitywidgets again. I tried taking a tramadol but it didn't help at all.

I had to go outside to get my groceries today. I let the shopper carry the big heavy stuff and I carried one bag. To the base of the stairs. And then my chest hurt, I couldn't breathe, I was dizzy. That's been happening more often. I'll bring it up to my doctor next week when I see her.

I'm craving ice cream. Specifically I want green tea ice cream and red bean ice cream. It's so yummy. Instead I'm sipping on my chocolate banana coffee and sitting with Pauley on the couch.

What's your favorite flavor of ice cream?

#BackPain #Migraine

When my peer specialist got me today I asked if we could stop by 7-Eleven so I could get a drink so I could take a pain pill. My back pain had spiked to 8. A half hour later my back pain was down to 6.

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Pauley set up my table station so I could make dinner. She's so helpful. I put a whole 6 pack of boneless skinless chicken thighs and one huge breast in the oven. I used salt free seasoning. I'm just gonna cut mine up and dip it in ranch dressing. It hurts way too much to stand up so I didn't make a veggie. I just told her she can make herself a veggie if she wants one cuz I'm just gonna have a sliced can of hearts of palm dipped in ranch. The pain is at 7. I really don't know how I manage days like this.

#BackPain #ChronicPain

We got to the flea market around 1pm and within 15 minutes I needed to sit down. I took a 5mg Norco 1 and a half hours before we left but it didn't help. I tried sitting for a half hour but it wasn't enough. I sent pauley to go hunt for food. She found some and sent me a picture... but my phone was on power saver so I didn't get the picture until she got back to the table. I decided to give it one more try and I went to go check out some hats but OMG my back pain was at 8. Pauley was having fun looking at stuff. When she was done I called our friend who drove us there to come get us. He wasn't expecting us until close to 6pm so 330pm was confusing. I explained my pain was just too much. When he got us he asked if we needed to go anywhere before home and I asked if he could please take us to the vape shop. He said of course. We were in there for 4 minutes. Then he took us home. He's a really swell fella. So it wasn't the day I was hoping for. But I'm trying to remember I'm disabled and this happens and I'm not worth less for it.