Comparison

Do you ever find it difficult to lean into what you are struggling with because you find yourself thinking "I shouldn't feel this way. XYZ person has it worse"? I do. All. The. Time. It's like there's some kind of continuum for suffering and my suffering never makes the cut.

I feel a deep sense of shame for feeling angry, sad, scared, grief, loss, over things that are tumultuous in my own life when I hear that someone else is going through something I deem way worse.

And yet, that completely invalidates our own experiences in life. When did we learn that our struggle doesn't matter? How did we decide that everyone else should come ahead of us?

I'm not saying we shouldn't be empathetic and show compassion for others in their struggles. But we really need to do the same for our own. Acknowledge that something sucks and allow ourselves to feel those feelings.

It's SO HARD though.

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#Trauma #PTSD #CPTSD #Comparison #struggle #suffering

Hi everyone- long time no chat.....

To piggy back off my last post, I accepted the job and have been loving it! So thank you to all for nice words and such. Yall da best 💕

Anyways....*drum roll*...........
Do we ever fully discover our purpose? Who we really are as individuals? Or is life a constant comparison battle? If so, can I say....it fucking blows.
I had my innocence, spirit and soul crushed and taken from me at a very young age and ever since those series of events- I’ve been lost.
For the longest time I was fighting to be the girl I used to be before the mental, emotional and physical abuse, the rape, the bullying and ultimately wanting to end my life so bad I ended up in a psych ward (12/10 don’t recommend btw...) anyways, since then I’ve been struggling to find my purpose or simply answer that annoying question of “who are you?” “Who do you want to be?” Not only for others but mainly myself.
For example: I’m 120% opposite of my S.O. Which everyone will say, “well, opposites attract, ya know?”
While that statement may ring true....for someone who’s lost in their own mind, being and soul...that’s a bloody nightmare. If I’m not comparing myself to what I THINK they want...I’m punishing myself and who I am as a person because I presume I’m not good enough for them but myself, as well.
Now, this is nothing that my S.O. Puts on me in terms of what’s going on mentally- this is my own screwed up thought process.

I get so jumbled up in my own thoughts that I don’t know what I see in the mirror other than a shell of a girl who can’t stand herself. I could pick myself into a million pieces and never be content enough. It’s so exhausting and not worth my time...because I know I’m okay- but my mind and thoughts say otherwise.

I need an off switch for everything.

Anyway, I’m half awake typing out meaningless nonsense. Stay rad everyone ✌🏼 #Depression #Comparison #Anxiety #BipolarDepression #exhaustion

Don’t compare yourself to someone else for you are beautifully unique and incredible just as you are! 💜💜☺️😀😃😄😍🥰🔆🧡