Distract Me

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I feel hopeless. Sometimes i feel so alone, i get desperate. I feel like i'm always feeling bad and I think that the people around me are tired of me or they pretend that everything is fine. But i'm collapsing inside. I've made so many changes in my life lately, and if I think about that I'm happy and satisfied, but then there are moments when I still sink into a black hole and i feel so sad. Then I think that people of my age shouldn't have these thoughts, they should enjoy life, but I can't and i'm wasting these years without being able to enjoy the good things. I am surrounded by beautiful things, and I will graduate next month, and I have dedicated my whole life to this goal. But now it's like I don't care that much anymore. This thing scares me. I know I have to be less hard on myself, but I feel like a disappointment #EhlersDanlosSyndrome #EDS #Loneliness #MentalHealth #ChronicIllness #ChronicFatigue #ChronicPain #Trauma #DistractMe #CheckInWithMe #Depression #Anxiety #Grief #SocialAnxiety #MightyTogether