emotions

Hello Friends!
I hope you have been well. I have experienced mixed #Emotions which sucks. Do you #rapidcycle at all? I know how #BipolarDisorder can really make things difficult. It does not help me when I have accompanying Anxiety/Panic disorder. #Anxiety and #Agoraphobia are never fun to deal with. I also suffer from #Thanatophobia where I fear the feelings of death, or the anticipation of dealing with another situation that can cause #Grief

I understand that there are many things that are out of our #control but, I am still #Trying my best to handle everything. We do what we can do, and I let God handle the rest.

Sometimes I am #afraid of going to places that I never went to before. I become afraid wondering if I will have some kind of #AnxietyAttack or even a #PanicAttack because of being lost. I also do not like traveling too far from home because it makes me #nervous !

How are you doing??

Have you ever needed a #Laugh at something that you know you cannot #change ? This made me laugh so much and at the same time, I saw how truthful it was to think if someone were to enter into my #dreams they would not be able to #DealWithIt at all. Each #Battle is different from one another. What #Hurts me a lot may be a like eating cotton candy to another.

Be #Kind today. #Share some #Laughs and #Joy amidst the #Sadness and the #Emotions that tear at you. Do not let the #Fear or #Anxiety control you. See it like a passing cloud. I see you there, but I am not going to engage with it even if I feel it!

#BipolarDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#MentalHealth
#Agoraphobia
#PanicDisorder

Sometime back I believed this:
Sometimes, when two broken people meet, they end up healing each other. They fill up all the cracks that lie bleeding on their souls. They soothe the broken hearts into a peaceful rhythm. They have felt how much it hurts. So they care,they understand, they protect, they nourish and they last…. anonymous ( ‘coz I dont remember where i read this)

But experience showed something else, may be two broken souls can understand how it feels to be broken inside outside, they may care but two broken souls, two broken ppl cant help each other to heal. They simply cant fill up the cracks that lie bleeding. Infact noone else can heal the broken people, broken souls. It needs a lot of courage to soothe each other’s broken hearts into a peaceful rhythm. In reality, even if you are surrounded by so many ppl, but noone is coming to heal u, to save u. It all depends on u, how to heal n most importantly to know exactly wat u want to heal !! N in all this healing drama, time plays an important part ,’coz few stopped feeling these broken parts even though they knw broken pieces but feelings vanished!!

These quotes, words unnecessarily romanticized the things, give unnecessary hopes that oh someone will come who will soothe, apply soothing balm to the broken pieces…. but this all is bullshit n more stupid, bullshit n crazy are those ( like me😜) who wasted time by believing this.
In short, no two beggars can help each other, n also no richie riches can help them either……pratyaya singh #Emotions #Perspective #Broken #brokenhearts #brokensouls

Today I turn 63. I remember when I was in my 40s thinking that 60 was seriously old. I don’t feel 63. My mind is still in its 30s and some days my body feels 65.

I have mixed emotions about birthdays. I sometimes wonder if people are being nice because they are “obligated” on birthdays. Intellectually I know this isn’t true because these same people are really nice to me all year, but, there are those nagging feelings of doubt.

Is it just me that feels this way?