Thank you to the man who understood that "I hate you" meant "I love you" "go away" meant "please stay"
"Im sad and confused" meant "cuddle me until everything goes away"
For knowing that I cared even when I didn't show it, for loving me endlessly and making sure I knew it.
For stroking my hair when I thought my world was falling, for still calling me beautiful after I sat there for ages bawling.
For never get mad when I was so damn mean and bad, for never giving up when I made you really sad.
For trying so hard to break down my wall and never giving up even though it was tall.
For finally tearing it down and caring for what was behind, for loving both my body and my fragile mind.
For accepting my weird and quirky way and for trying your hardest to stay... Even when I pushed you away.
It was hard for you so think of how hard it is for me never knowing who I'm going to be,
waking up with a different personality.
Never being in a stable mood, either starving myself or binge eating food.
Feeling a void so empty and dead, but knowing my demons are all in my head.
For not being able to escape my fears, for feeling weak when I released my tears.
For letting my traits ruin what we had and now having no one to turn to when I am sad.
For making you hate me because I thought that would be best.. For trying to get rid of you just like the rest.
But you've helped me more than you will ever no.. I wish I never let you go.