SchizophreniaSpectrum

“Negative symptoms have been the most difficult for me. Flattened moods feel like a dull, vacant ache I carry in my chest, only drawn out when I connect with people, making more effort to feel human.

I'm inevitably pulled by the endemic panic, fear, and paranoia that plagues people living with schizophrenia, challenging my better senses and judgment.

My ability to relate to others begins to deteriorate, and I start to withdraw from the things that keep me mentally healthy.

The content of my thoughts and emotions becomes obscured or absent in isolation, and it feels like I'm enveloped in a black, chill radiation or languishing in a hollow void.

The disfigured, anxious person I don't recognize as myself returns until I seek to thaw the agoraphobic stasis I self-inflicted.”

Hi! I live with a dissociative disorder where my identity is basically in fragments, but not quite defined with specific age/names. Some of these fragments think and feel like a child. I’ll range from being really babyish with limited knowledge, to being more competent like an elementary schooler. It’s all pretty vague. It’s also dependent on the presence of my psychosis/mood symptoms, as well as stress and trauma. Weirdly hormones can play a role too. Anyway I would really love to have a pal for when I am “little”. I find myself craving affection/being nurtured/cared for. For the most part I talk very cuddly and innocently. **Just looking for ppl who can accommodate that in a conversation without being judgemental of my disorder**. I am not really embarrassed by the age regression, mainly because I’m too delusional to care. And I’d like to keep it that way, so please be kind. Feel free to direct message me on here, all anonymous and non attachment of course. Just some comforting chit-chat here and there would be great. P.S. I am not always in touch with reality.

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