“I am not a stranger to the dark
Hide away, they say
'Cause we don't want your broken parts
I've learned to be ashamed of all my scars
Run away, they say
No one'll love you as you are”
It took forever to see the movie associated with this amazing song but I heard the beautiful and talented Keala Settle sing it repeatedly beforehand thanks to my love for Pandora radio.
Whenever I hear this song it resonates. My life, myself.
“This is me.”
My life. I’m scarred both physically, mentally and emotionally. But I’ve survived, and I’ve thrived. I have 2 amazing kids, a loving boyfriend, friends I love and a job I adore.
“This is me.”
With my 2 amazing kids come a myriad of issues.
My 18 year old daughter. Beautiful, talented, caring and compassionate. She has Attention Deficit Disorder, anxiety, and Ocular Myasthenia Gravis. Myasthenia Gravis is a neuromuscular disease we never heard of prior to her diagnosis, but have learned so much about. With this disease comes the concerns with medications she can or cannot take, vaccines she can or cannot take based on her meds, and accommodations at school due to difficulties she occasionally has with her eyesight due muscle weakness. But since her eyes are the only thing affected currently, there is a 50% chance her whole body can eventually be affected.
My 13 year old son. Adorable, playful, imaginative and loving. He has autism level 1, anxiety and asthma. We hear everything regarding this little guy from, “oh he doesn’t look autistic” (which elicits a comment from his protective older sister, “what does autism look like?”) to “he doesn’t seem autistic.” You never know how uninformed people can be when they feel a disability has a particular “look” or behavior. Autism Spectrum Disorder is just that, a SPECTRUM. It’s a wide range of issues and behaviors.
“This is me.”
I have 2 divorces under my belt, not that I am proud of, but I do. I also have scars and other issues I am dealing with. I have also took the leap and got diagnosed ADHD, and discovered that I also have obsessive compulsive personality disorder. Things I have always wondered over the years are finally settling into place.
So, this is me…
#ADHD #ASD #OCPD #MG