I woke up feeling like I was crawling in my own skin, pacing around the house, couldn't focus, negative thoughts in my head. I couldn't go back to sleep either. I tried working out a little and eating, eventually I took an adivan and feel asleep for half the day. When I woke up the second time I felt awful, worthless, tired, irritable, couldn't stop crying. Now I feel like I've wasted my day and am sad about that too. I haven't had a low like this for a while, I hate the ups and downs, feeling so #unstable and #Insecure #BipolarDisorder #Depression #Anxiety
I feel stuck. I'm 37, I dont feel like an adult. It feels like everyone is doing a group choreographed dance, but I dont know the steps, nor do I undunderstand where I was when everyone was learning and practicing those steps.
Life keeps moving and I feel trapped in nothingness. I have no partner or children, I work and rent a room.
I get uncontrollable anxiety, and have to fight the urge to get in my car, get rid of my phone, and go live outside.
Homelessness and hiding is the solution I keep coming up with. I'm feeling unhinged.
And I'm losing ANOTHER relationship.
Is anyone else ever experiencing this?
I’m sure all of us can notice changes in our daily life that point to the fact we’re indeed depressed and out of our ‘normal swing’ of things. For me, I find that if I’m not singing or haven’t laughed in a good while, my mental health is off... not to mention the crowded mess I’ve navigated around and tolerate in my dwelling in comparison to a clean home. It is always a beautiful “aha” moment when I snap out of it and realize I’m back to feeling like myself.
What is your “tell” that you’re not well?
#Depression #Anxiety #unstable #funk
I have depression, extreme anxiety, BPD, hallucinations and it makes me angry.
I try my hardest to act "normal" but I still feel like people kinda brush me off when I speak or have a plan for my future. I've flaked out on so much stuff but I'd still like to be encouraged. I think people are just fed up with me now... just feeling really crap lately about myself. #Depression #Anxiety #BPD #unstable #MentalHealth
I have bipolar 2 disorder, raging codependency, and chemical addiction (sober now). I am drawn to men with active alcoholism, narcissists, and borderlines. The love of my life is a borderline and the back and forth is killing me. On a rebound from him, I wound up with a narcissist who used me for money. My BPD love rescued me from him. I have been moving for months. I am exhausted and bankrupt in every way. My #Everythinghurts #unstable #sobroken