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(65f)I’ve never really thought of this word before but apathy makes a lot of sense for my life. #apathy #Bipolar #c -PTSD #Anxiety #Depression #hemiplegic migraine #Peripheral neuropathy #eating disorders…

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Burnt-out from the ignorance that comes from the mouths of so called trained medical professionals whom attended society's schools to acquire a stamp of approval that they specialize in whatever 🙄 and obtained A DEGREE.

#Allergies #SpinalMuscularAtrophy #Anxiety #GastroesophagealRefluxDisease #SpinalStenosis #ChronicFatigueSyndrome #BrainInjury #MentalHealth #CardiovascularDisease #RheumatoidArthritis #Osteoporosis #Peripheral #InflammatoryBowelDiseaseIBD #InflammatoryArthritis #CrohnsDisease

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Of All the Stupid Things

I know about PTSD my ex has it. I thought I was just having anxiety attacks until last Sunday. On the way home from visiting a family member (a 2 hr trip one-way in a very old car) my car radio started with a warning of a tornado in the area I was driving. On a major highway it starts raining really hard then ice and strong winds. This is nothing new for the Florida state it rains so hard you can't see the car in front. We all put our flashers on continued driving went into the eye then back into the outer bands of the tornado it was terrifying. I was shaking so when I got home I went straight to bed. I hate driving in the rain before this. It seems when I was a child I was in two car accidents with my parents and it was raining. I wasn't driving but I experienced it. Then when I moved to Florida I was in a very bad accident. I was helping in a pre-existing accident during a rainstorm. Car number one had thought she had pulled off of the highway when she was actually in the right lane The car behind her which was the car in front of me....all of a sudden the car in front of me the lights were gone in like a flick of a switch. I immediately yanked my wheel to the left just missed her by milliseconds went into the medin. Everything was in slow motion wheels car parts rolling around steam coming up from car engines people screaming. I ran to the first car the woman had no idea what was going on I told her to shut her car off and put her flashers on asked if she was okay she said yes. I went to the car that hit her which was the car in front of me and it was too young girls. They were both hurt. I was tending to the one in the driver's seat A young man came over I asked if he had a belt on and we put a tourniquet on the driver's leg. I didn't see her passenger right away she kept asking where is so and so. I remember going to that side of the car looking for the girl and then realizing that the young girl was face planted into the dashboard. By this time people had stopped. A woman tapped me on the shoulder and said I'll take care of this girl You go help the driver and I looked at her and she said I'm a nurse We just left the hospital my husband is over there he's calling for the ambulances. I remember walking around the front of the car and that's the last thing I remember except seeing bright lights and somebody yelling run run she's not going to stop. There was a car coming over the hill the woman was drunk and she wound up hitting the girls in the car again and me. I was told I went 20 ft into the air I landed in a ditch. I woke up I didn't have my shoes on or my socks I didn't I know where I was but I couldn't get up I kept trying I was terrified I was going to get eaten by an alligator. Would you believe I didn't have one broken bone I was covered in road rash though. So while I survived that and the home that I currently live in now has flooded every year. I never realized the connection between heavy rain and wind and PTSD with me until I drove through a tornado. It was an EF0 It did tear up mobile homes but it explains so much why I panic every time it starts raining hard. Most of my meditation tapes have water in them most of them I can't listen to. Like I say of all the stupid things to have PTSD too heavy rain. And I just found this out this week. #ADHD #Anxiety
# angioedema hives idiopathic# hiatal hernia #Pleurisy #raynaud syndrome #Shingles left eye #Shoulder bilateral impingement system #unstable lumbar spine #Bastrop syndrome #bone spurs #Cataracts #COPD #Costochondritis
# Fibromyalgia #Osteopenia #Osteoarthritis #Peripheral neuropathy #kyphosis # gerd# ptsd

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Why am I'm a magnet for men who want to debase or scam me financially.

I'm on my 3rd divorce we've been apart for 13+ yrs. married 24. He purchased this foreclosure home said I could fix it up and live in it. Use his benefits when he passed, he lives with his gf for 13 yrs. This past Nov. I was blindsided by divorce pprs claiming I owe him all this money, he claims he's in debt he's taken out multiple loans & credit cards he took out most of the equity in the house I'm fixing up. In our state I'm responsible for half his debts. I'm on a low fixed income .
Also I have been following the Ukraine war. Sending messages of hope praying for them. Then I get these guys pretending they are soldiers sending pics trying to romance me then asking for money. I know about scamming I don't fall for it. I feel like I have this big bulls eye target on my back. Why does me caring cause all the nasty people to show up?
#ADHD #Anxiety #Fibromyalgia #Cronic Fatigue# #Osteoporosis #Osteopenia #Raynard syndrome #Peripheral neuropathy #Gout #Shingles

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Light at the end of tunnel is a train.

Just when I thought I was getting some answers & help regarding my spine issues and my hands being swollen. All this crazy stuff with me difficulty getting doctor appointments. My new primary doctor sent me for blood work and I have some not great results. It seems my bun-creatine ratio is High+ MCHC is Low ( signs of anemia) Carbon Dioxide in blood is High- there was slight blood in urine but also noted Rare Hyaline cast in urine (indicator of kidney disease). I think I want to throw up I don't know whether I want to cry or scream in frustration and anger. Still waiting to see the rheumatologist about my swollen hands knuckles leg foot. Finish up with my nerve ablations in my lower spine. And now this. I'm sensing (feeling a panic pulse) a medical tsunami and I'm just waiting to get hit.
#chronic pain
#Costa chondritis
#idiopathic Angioedema hives
#Baastrop syndrome
#rheumatoid Arthritis
#Peripheral Neuropathy
#raynaud 's syndrome
#spinal stenosis
#Bilateral impingement syndrome
#Pleurisy W/D
#Shingles in the left eye

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When is enough enough?! #AnkylosingSpondylitis #RheumatoidArthritis #PsoriaticArthritis #ComplexRegionalPainSyndrome #Anxiety #Depression #Bipolar1Disorder #DegenerativeDiscDisease #Hiatal Hernia #ChronicFatigue #Peripheral Arterial Disease

All the diagnosis that I’ve hash tagged is not even the entire list of diagnosis. Hence the question when is enough enough?! With fibromyalgia and ankylosing spondylitis, the pain is chronic and wide spread. Then came all the other auto immune disorders. The disk degenerative leading to neuropathy that then leads to muscle spasms since the nerves are damaged or already dead. Then came the PAD, peripheral arterial disease. That means my arteries are not pumping enough oxygen filled blood to my legs. Without oxygen, cells die. Worst case scenario, gangrene can set in or amputation if limb no longer functions. Surgery on November 1st. Laser ablation of the artery. The last and worst. Complex Regional Pain Syndrome . Worst pain known to the medical community. Worst then child birth, worst then amputation without anesthesia. It usually spreads from the affected limb to another. No cure. No known effective treatment overall. The constant pain and fatigue is overwhelming. I’m grieving for the future that I had envisioned. I’m grieving for the person I used to be. The insult is so many imaging, x rays, and labs, plus a cardiologist, vascular surgeon, rheumatologist, neurologists, gastroenterologist, podiatrist, my primary and physical therapist all diagnosing, with back up, these horrible disorders and the new guidelines concerning pain killers, where does that leave me? Don’t punish those living daily lives in extreme pain because of the misuse of meds by addicts. There are vets being denied pain meds because of this situation with pain meds. Doctors should treat their patients and not worry about being sued instead. I deserve some quality of life and so do every single one of you. I wish you well.

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Peripheral artery disease

I was diagnosed 9 days ago with peripheral artery disease, my G.P. sent a referral and the hospital called yesterday saying that the vascular surgeon wants to see me urgently and I have to go to the hospital Tuesday morning but if I got any chest pain or abnormal symptoms then I had to call an ambulance. I also was told by my G.P. that I have an enlarged thyroid that has nodules or something and they can’t rule out cancer as it’s in my family.
She did ask DOES IN RUN IN MY FAMILY. I told her nobody runs in my family pmsl #Peripheral artery disease