I often feel like I’m failing at being an adult. My kids think I’m fun, my nieces and nephews love me because I’m that crazy aunt, but I have a really hard time being around adults and handling adult things like bills etc. I often feel smothered by people and like my husbands fam is constantly judging me because of my quirky ways. I can’t seem to hold a job to save my life, So I’m a stay at home mom. I try my best but often feel like I’m failing at this too. I feel like my husband is a “real” adult, and I’m just out here floundering in this world! I have adhd, often my world seems chaotic to others. I know my chaos, I can’t imagine what it’s like to be around me or hold a conversation with me because I’m all over the place with topics, my house gets cluttered due to my lack of organization skills, I lack structure, I often refer to myself as “a feather floating in the wind”. I guess that’s why I get along better with kids. Idk just feeling like I missed the boat these days. I think I should have a career by now or at least some form of education under me. I do have 3 awesome sons, my oldest is 19, middle Is 7, youngest is 10 months. Im 36. I want them to be proud of me, I feel like all I’ve accomplished in life is being a mother and I’m a pretty decent cook when I remember to do it lol. And as much as I adore, and appreciate this title and would not trade it for anything, I do feel like people are expected to be more than this now days which in turn makes me feel like so much less of a person. I often think my husband married a dud. I know I’ve got something to offer just haven’t figured that part out yet, I feel passionate about too many things I guess. Well here I go rambling on lol!! #adhdwoman #MomGuilt