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You ever just wanna throw your hands in the air and say “fuck it all”? Well that’s exactly what I’m feeling right now. I feel like everything fucking sucks rn. America’s insane for having Trump TWICE (we could’ve have our second chance for a woman president BUT NOOOO, a Neo-Nazi got president again instead!), I’m so sick of everything being “AI”’d purely because of harmful shit like AI art for existing and not caring whether something labeled AI or not, CRYPTOCURRENCY LIKE BITCOIN IS HARMING THE FUCKING ENVIRONMENT, NFTS STEALS ART WITHOUT ARTISTS’ PERMISSIONS… I can go on. To the point where it’s becoming FUCKING UNAVOIDABLE like in Apple’s AppStore and of course there is ABSOLUTELY no way to turn these suggestions off, LIKE NO, STOP SUGGESTING ME AI ART GENERATORS AND CRYPTO!!!

I don’t fucking trust or like Microsoft or Google anymore because of the shit they’ve done (including AI art generators).

Still can’t even get a FUCKING DISABILITY PAYMENT after all of these FUCKING YEARS let alone get a lawyer because WE AREN’T RICH LIKE THAT, ESPECIALLY BEING SOMEONE OF COLOR! Even then, I’m sick of having my autism being the reason, because it is NOT a disability/disorder, my anxiety and trauma disorder are the real disorders!! Next time, it will NOT be autism as A reason, but honestly I just want to say fuck this process in general because I’m so sick of it and possibly being misgendered all over again (I’m non-binary).

Many things I used to like/go to I cannot anymore because of the fucking inflation and higher/change of free plans (which I do understand that plenty of it is thanks to 2020 event and virus that shall not be named).

Things could’ve been better this decade, but NO. THINGS HAVE NOT BEEN FUCKING BETTER!!!

(Don’t call me human, I identify as something else non-pessimisticly and spiritually. Words relating to the 2020 event trigger me, like highly upset me and will bring up bad feelings. Thanks for understanding.)

#VentPost #Anxiety #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #AutismSpectrum #MyAutismIsNotADisorder #MyAutismIsNotADisability #angry #fedup #unfair #triggerwarning #venting #OSTD #OtherSpecifiedTraumaDisorder #DoneWithEverything

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Honestly, what the FUCK! I CAN’T FUCKING WORK! What is it that they can’t seem to understand?! My anxiety is a disability, damn it!!!

It’s been 3 FUCKING TIMES ALREADY, 2 FUCKING APPEALS, and I POORED ALL OF MY FUCKING HEART OUT ABOUT WHY I CANNOT FUCKING WORK, THE EMOTIONAL TRAUMA, THE EPISODES OF DEPRESSION, THE FUCKING HYGIENE ISSUES, MY SEVERE SOCIAL GENDER DYSPHORIA AS A NON-BINARY INDIVIDUAL AND AVOIDING MOST SOCIAL SITUATIONS OUT OF THE PURE FEAR OF BEING MISGENDERED, HATE BEING UNDER PRESSURE, HAVING MANY TRIGGERS! I was receiving payment for 3 fucking months, and NOW they’ve decided that my FUCKING STRUGGLES AREN’T ENOUGH?!?!

Honestly fuck everything. I feel like I’ll just never be truly seen by this US government. I’ve only just wasted my fucking time with them, and so really don’t feel like HAVING TO EXPLAIN TO THEM FOR THE 50TH TIME THAT I’M NOT MY BIRTH GENDER AND I AM NOT A BINARY GENDER!

#MyAutismIsNotADisorder #MyAutismIsNotADisability #MYANXIETYISADISABILITY #Anxiety #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #FeelingIgnored #thissucks #Trauma #angry #disappointment #LGBTQ #Loneliness #sad #Vent #venting

I had such a good therapy session today. I did some homework last night and my girlfriend helped. My therapist said he was very proud of me for doing such deep work. It was a deep dive into the shadows. It even helped me bond with my girlfriend.

So naturally I wanted to tell my mom. I called her and was so bubbly. I told her about doing the work with flutter...

and her immediate response was "but I don't understand why she had to be involved. It's YOUR therapy. You shouldn't need help from anyone".

I just don't have adequate words for how upset I am. I didn't argue, I said I will talk to you later and I hung up. I just couldn't wrap my head around how she's so clueless and closed minded.

I wish I could cut my mom out of my life but when my daughter turns 18 in November this year I will need my mom to help me connect with her. So I gotta play nice.

#angry #MentalHealth

It feels like I am #angry all the time. It feels like I live in Anger. I know I’m suppose to notice the Anger, not avoid it, accept it & then it decreases. But then I do something else and I’m angry all over again. I feel like anger controls me. I’m also am in recovery from an Eating Disorder & feel I use food as a way to cope with my constant anger. I know people say it’s a “secondary emotion” and I feel angry about that they say that too (lol). I just wish it would leave me the ….. alone… I have thoughts that I’m tormented by it. I am in and use DBT and still really struggle with the emotion of anger. I know “they” say underneath anger is sadness or fear…. I hate it. I feel angry at my interactions, at my friends, I’m intolerant & snap at people, inpatient. I grew up with a parent who raged a lot at us kids. It feels like I can’t get rid of the anger. Maybe I should f….. marry it! :)
I just don’t understand it and feel I’m one of the only ones who deals with this 90% of the time. I feel sad, angry & intolerant of being angry. I wake up angry. My name could be Debbiewhodealswithangerineffectively! 💜

I'm angry right now. Ash and I might be broken up because I messed up... I said something wrong and now she's not talking to me... dang please anybody help me like I feel dead inside... I need Ash like really bad... I never needed anybody like I needed. I feel stupid. #angry #depressed #Dead

I kind of had a fight a while ago with my “best” friend (if I can call her that right now). She verbally attacked me calling me lazy, saying she has to speak to my like a child, saying I only care when people spend money on me and so many other things. She tries to dictate my life and doesn’t understand what I’m going through at all. She pressured me to break up with my boyfriend when I wasn’t ready, she tries to tell me where to live, she used to tell me what to do and what to like. I fed into it but as soon as I started becoming my own person problems started to arise.

My point is that I’m pissed off at her and need to set boundaries to protect myself and my peace. I don’t need anyone telling me what to do. I don’t need anyone committed to misunderstanding me. I don’t need anyone who has no empathy towards me. She thinks she knows me better than I know myself but she doesn’t.

I just had to vent this out. I keep splitting on her and this time it’s lasting a while. Right now I want nothing to do with her and I know I’m just seeing things in black and white but I can’t think any other way right now so how dare she?

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Bipolar2Disorder #angry #Depression #Anxiety

My mom doesn't accept me for being LGBTQ+ and she is being ridiculous. I was talking to my dad about my volunteer job and how I like to ask the people what country their families are from. My mom said asking the people where they are from is intrusive sorry but WTF is intrusive and also I wasn't talking to you. She's getting on my nerves right now. #angry #BipolarDisorder #Anxiety #Autism

Hi everybody so here's my problem. Someone at my job at the hospital I work at is ticking my off. He said that the ladies can't take our the trash, God only knows why. Then today while we were getting patients food ready to deliver I wanted food. He then proceeded to yell at me because suppose the phone rings. I mean I could have waited but I wanted food and I mean I don't want to get yelled at again but I mean seriously. I am not good at thinking that great and when I want something I am going get to it. Not saying that it couldn't have waited but I mean please don't yell at me. #angry #Bipolar