How do others release all their pent up anger? I just went from Zero to Boiling in the time it took to realize one of my dogs went under my bed covers and peed. Busted! Usually I don’t catch any incidents and left to wonder which one is the guilty. The bitch! I just offered both dogs to go outside, there was no reason for this unacceptable behavior. When it comes to my two #esa they are family. So, it only horrified me when I want to see them fall off the face of the earth in that same desperate nanosecond when my anger shoots skyward. Such shame for me to love then hate on the turn of a dime.
Now doing laundry on the night shift. I spewed out some hateful things, carefully put both dogs outside for a timeout and decided neither are allowed in my bedroom anymore. Whine all you want. I wish my feelings didn’t turn from Fluff to Furry in a heartbeat. It scares me when I feel such deep hatred, I know it’s mostly tied to past dog traumas. Who would think dogs could bring trauma? Will save those stories for another time.
The magic is in releasing. I feel better, no one has to see this or like it or reply, I just needed to confess my heart and now I am not as burdened. #feelings #anger #CPTSD