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Self Imposed Prison - Trapped in my own mind

When my world came crashing down, I was forced to find my way in the world. Every bad decision I made altered the course of my life. I was stuck in a rut as my father described it. Unfortunately for me; it was much worse than that.

The rut was one thing and the need to pull myself out of it was ever present. Sadly the rut was only the beginning of a life-time of negative emotions and regret. I wish I could have experienced the trauma and continued with a positive attitude and I did attempt to forget about the people who hurt me. No matter how hard I tried to forget and move on I was stuck reliving the trauma over and over again.

Angry, sadness and revenge continuously played on my mind. As time has passed I just wanted some closure from the incident as it is forever haunting me. Even an apology would make me feel a little better instead I am stuck in self-loathing and misery while the people who hurt me continue on as though nothing happened.

While everyone my age was having a good time and enjoying their youth, I would spend each weekend isolating in my room. Weekends trying to forget what happened to me with the help of marijuana. I was my own worst enemy, imprisoned and desperate for a solution. Just like everything else in my life - I was looking for an easy fix. An easy fix which I am still looking for to this day

I have come to realise that trauma will be ever present in my life. It has become a part of me whether I like it or not. The victim mindset has plagued me for years and I need to make a change. I need to let go of the negativity and anger once and for all.

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40 Years of Anxiety and Depression

#Depression and #Anxiety have been at their worst for the last 3 years! Awake with racing thoughts of #Doom , physical flu like aching. I dread waking every single day. Severe fatigue especially by midday. On Klonopin for 30 years, which no longer works. Tried 7 anti-depressants….side effects of irritation prohibitive. .05 #Lexapro for a week now. Will try to push thru this low dose for a month or so. #happy to have discovered Mighty. More to come.

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Anyone suffering anxiety related to the spread of Covid? I have a constant sense of doom, even more so now my mum,dad and sis have Covid. #Anxiety

#AnxietyAnyone suffering anxiety related to the spread of Covid? I have a constant sense of doom, even more so now my mum,dad and sis have Covid. #Anxiety #COVID19 #Doom

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