feelingbetter

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When my world came crashing down, I was forced to find my way in the world. Every bad decision I made altered the course of my life. I was stuck in a rut as my father described it. Unfortunately for me; it was much worse than that.

The rut was one thing and the need to pull myself out of it was ever present. Sadly the rut was only the beginning of a life-time of negative emotions and regret. I wish I could have experienced the trauma and continued with a positive attitude and I did attempt to forget about the people who hurt me. No matter how hard I tried to forget and move on I was stuck reliving the trauma over and over again.

Angry, sadness and revenge continuously played on my mind. As time has passed I just wanted some closure from the incident as it is forever haunting me. Even an apology would make me feel a little better instead I am stuck in self-loathing and misery while the people who hurt me continue on as though nothing happened.

While everyone my age was having a good time and enjoying their youth, I would spend each weekend isolating in my room. Weekends trying to forget what happened to me with the help of marijuana. I was my own worst enemy, imprisoned and desperate for a solution. Just like everything else in my life - I was looking for an easy fix. An easy fix which I am still looking for to this day

I have come to realise that trauma will be ever present in my life. It has become a part of me whether I like it or not. The victim mindset has plagued me for years and I need to make a change. I need to let go of the negativity and anger once and for all.

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How do I feel better?It is by helping someone else even if it is a small gesture, like saying a kind word, listening or giving them a plate of cookies. This small gesture gives meaning to my life for a moment. #feelingbetter

#CheerMeOn
I couldn’t get up to drive my son to school. Thankfully, my husband did it. I shuffled to the kitchen for breakfast, taking meds & filling up my water bottle. I sat down in my recliner. Daughter brought in the mail at 12:45. My new skirt came from Darn Good Yarn! It’s so beautiful I HAD to put it on. #thankful #happy #Energy #yay

I ended up not dressing up, but ditching my English class to go into the park and blast my favorite playlist and dance like nobody was watching! I left feeling better than ever and realizing that I don't need make-up to feel good about myself!
#Depression #SuicidalIdeation #Selfharming #help #feelingbetter #thishelps

So first things first. I got my negative test results after have COVID for 2 weeks. I’m feeling better. Mostly a cough and fatigue left. On to the other thing. The plumbing in my house is fixed!!! I have been so stressed out over this and it has been a big trigger for bother my anxiety and migraines. I’m just so happy today and can’t wait todo laundry and take a hot shower.

I often feel like I'm isolated, lonely, and feel empty. Funny when I read how many others feel three same, I don't feel ago bad. #isolated #FeelingEmpty #feelingbetter #improvement

I should explain that four years ago I lost a job I loved because of my illnesses. I worked as a theatre support worker during operations at a nearby hospital.

I absolutely loved that job. I tried so hard to always be a model employee, to do my job well. But one day, during a kidney removal I started to suddenly feel hot and tingly all over. When I woke up I was in a hospital bed; the nurses and staff in the operating theatre had carried me onto a trolley and sent me around to A&E.

I discovered soon after that accident that I’d developed Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome... I was given time off work but eventually theu decided to cut
me loose. And along with the POTS my bladder condition (insterstital cystitis) started to flare up and I ended up on morphine for a while. Luckily, I managed to kick that habit and now I’m taking Dihydrocodeine for my bladder and the joint pain I get from Ehler’s Danlos Syndrome.

Naturally, after I lost my job I was devasted. I fell into a deep depression. My health continued to get worth. It seemed like every time I went to the hospital for a check up, I was told I had something else wrong with me. Like Non-Alcoholic Fatty Liver Disease thats turned into Cirrohsis, and shortly after THAT diagnosis I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes and I’m currently waiting for an Endoscopy on my stomach because I seem to have nearly all the symptoms of stomach ulcers.

I started to neglect myself. I didn’t take my medication, I stopped looking up and down the street before crossing the road, I stopped showing/bathing regularly. I’d go weeks, (which is gross - I know) without cleaning myself up. Everything was so exhausting. And I just didn’t have the energy.

A few weeks ago, however, I decided to start taking care of myself. I started taking my medication on time every day, I started bathing three times a week (our boiler is small and there are 5 of us in this house), I started styling my hair and putting on my face creams and wearing a little bit of make up. I feel good. But even more than all of this I’m exercising at least once every other day on my new bike.

I know these things are so small and don’t mean much... But I’m so proud of how far I’ve come.

#chronicillnesswarriors #ChronicHealthConditions #POTSUK #EDS #NAFLD #BPD #InterstitialCystitis #Diabetes #feelingbetter #Proudofmyself #Pleased #Being Sensible #LosingWeight #Cycling

For the longest time, I didn’t take my meds at the time I was supposed to. I was always late taking them. But for the last month, since I was put on Gliclazide (a diabetic medication used to lower your blood sugar quickly) I’ve been taking my medication religiously. At the exact right time or on the dot. And I feel so so much better for it.

I’ve been cycling for at least 20minutes nearly every day since I bought the bike on the 19th May. I feel so much stronger. It’s gotten to a point where I actually like the ache that’s left in my legs after I’ve finished cycling.

Just being able to do something that helps my body AND have it be something I really enjoy is amazing. I don’t feel lazy anymore. I don’t feel useless and powerless. I’m truly happy.

#chronicillnesswarrior #ChronicHealthConditions #POTS #POTSUK #EDS #BPD #NAFLD #Diabetes #InterstitialCystitis #Exercise #Bike #Cycling #feelingbetter #BeingGood