Feeling

So #Yesterday my #social #battery was #okay , but #today it's #empty 🥴 #Feeling like #everything can #Work #Relationships daily #tasks can & will have to #wait 🫷🏾#Autism #PTSDSupportAndRecovery

I was just dx’d with cancer that I have been dealing with for at LEAST 10 years. I’m 75 this week. I left one GP for several reasons but including having ignored this specific complaint back in 2014. A Specialist I went to last year also dismissed it. In a not-so-comedy-of-paperwork-errors last week, it appears that I am unable to get the appointment I need this Friday with this area’s best Specialist, and must wait until August to be seen! Of course I’ll call every day if they tell me there’s no “waiting list” for cancellations. In just five weeks I’m finally hopefully to be ruled on Parkinson’s Disease. I have one surgery, 3 screenings, & a mid- spinal procedure to go thru before then. I keep up. But something’s wrong here. Something is VERY, VERY WRONG. And I am NOT ONE to keep quiet 🤐 when “wrongs” need to be “righted”. I am feeling very “expendable” because of my age…being elderly. Like if you’re “elderly”, you can be readily dismissed, kicked to the curb, you’ll be gone soon-enough anyway, you’re not worth wasting time on. Business is $$$. Get lost. Ignored. Discriminated against. THIS IS THE FINAL STRAW! My grandsons deserve their adoring “Mimi”, I have a full life, and this kick-a** mother knows how to be a mover & shaker till her last breath!! Watch me!!
P.S. This is the furLove of my life, hysterically funny cat “Salsa” who was just 1 yr old. Got her at 10 weeks, she’d been badly abused. She doesn’t “meow”, she only “chirps” & very high-pitched “trills”! And LOVES drinking running water from the tap where she plays like she’s a fish! Being a Ragdoll, she behaves as if she were a dog- is SO smart, loyal, loving 🥰… still shy about lap sitting, but never leaves my side and sleeps on the bed! She needs me to spoil and play with her! That’s one thing elders do well when they’re not trying to help educate this misguided world!

#scream is something that would feel #good right now... But will it #help ?? I have been #struggling a lot and it has not been the #best #Feeling ever. Tonight I went over my recent #Events of #Life and thought that perhaps I had fell behind somehow.

I am #Trying to see what is #True !

What can I do to feel better about this #Job life? (And trying to find something more meaningful).

Please #helpme