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What We Give

Sometimes we show the picture we paint for the world to see

A trickling laugh
Beaming eyes
And a seemingly permanent smile

Even though you were crying in the docs office 10 minutes prior

Heck, your still embarrassed you cried in the doctors office, Because you promised yourself you would never do that .

But here you are
Sitting on a creaky hospital chair
Waiting to be called back for an Xray
Feeling .. As weak as the skeletal structure that holds a body that feels unfit for the job it was made to do.

But still you ask the awesome lady at the front desk how her day has been

Compliment the lady with the cute shirt next to you.

Still you smile when the radiology tech calls your name , and respond to “ how are you doing “ with
“ I’m alright “

Even when you feel far from it

Hug a friend you see in the hallway

Because life is hard for all of us .

And one of the main things life has taught me is

Sometimes it’s more important to help create joy

Than share your pain #ChronicIllness #RareDisease #AutoimmuneDisease #CommonVariableImmuneDeficiency #MastCellActivationDisorder #MentalHealth #Migraine #ChronicPain #MixedConnectiveTissueDiseaseMCTD

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I did not know what my title should be since I am having some major issues right now because of all my autoimmune diseases, mental health issues, and a host of other medical problems. I am having a major problem focusing on one task and getting it done. While I am trying to accomplish that task another task surfaces in my brain and I tell myself I should do that one because it will make the first task easier to finish. Before I can get started on any task a whole host of other tasks I need to do. That's when I become so overwhelmed I don't do anything. That is when the anxiety and depression over take me and I just shut my brain down so I can cope. I would like to see a psychiatrist but have been unable to find one who accepts insurance and we cannot afford to cash pay. I also suffer with #Fibromyalgia , #Bipolar2 , #PTSD , #ChronicPain , #MixedConnectiveTissueDiseaseMCTD , #GranulomatosisWithPolyangiitis , Buerger's Disease, #Kidney Transplant, #type 2 Diabetes, #Brain Fog

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Checked out this year

Mentally checked out.
Hardly keeping up.
Running myself into the ground day in day out.
These last two years have been tough.
Trying not being on autopilot all the time .
Not feeling like I’m living, just going through the motions .
Am I happy ? Am I not ?
#MixedConnectiveTissueDiseaseMCTD #MentalHealth #RaynaudsPhenomenon #RheumatoidArthritis #AutonomicDysfunction

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Forgotten

Feeling forgotten by friends and loved ones. Some new stepping up to the plate.

Life is so weird like that. We know we will pass through chapters and stages throughout life some coming and some going .

Just can’t wrap my head around just poof “bye” as soon as i am not readily available at everyone’s request.

I still overly push myself which I know is at times doing more harm than good for my body but I need to push for the sanity of my mind.

Even before i became unexpectedly ill I’ve felt like people just would use me and toss me when i was no longer of use. Now I just feel like this happens even quicker .

Just scattered thoughts . Has anyone else noticed how people act around them has changed ?

#MentalHealth #Depression #AutonomicDysfunction #POTS #RaynaudsPhenomenon #RheumatoidArthritis #MixedConnectiveTissueDiseaseMCTD

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It’s been awhile

Needless to say nothings really changed for the better . Not necessarily the worst either.

I started embrel for my arthritis and I’m really not sure how I feel about it but I really don’t want to get back on prednisone . Equally aren’t the greatest. “Do the pros out way the cons . “

Therapy has been going good it’s kinda nice just to be able to talk to someone who’s not only studied it but lived with trauma as well and acts on her own suggestions for herself. Example: breathing exercises, does it on perineal tone / with clients to help / and recommends it .

Personal life feel like a rock stuck on the side of a river . Watching as life goes by .

Medical sometime I feel stronger most the time I feel weaker . Some days are better than others but over all auto pilot and suck. Between one condition flaring up another etc etc .

I’m having a hard time taking my medicine . It’s just like my brain is like “NO”. Squirrel and I get side tracked and don’t remember to do it . Even logging medical symptoms is tedious and just don’t have the will.

I’ve missed you old friends
#MixedConnectiveTissueDiseaseMCTD #AutonomicDysfunction #Depression #Anxiety #MentalHealth #RaynaudsPhenomenon #RheumatoidArthritis

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Incredible guiltTraumatizing my kids (19&21yo) I got toxic megacolon 3 wks ago, the drs saved my life w colectomy w ileostomy. I’m a single mom

Both my kids are persevering with multiple serious medical problems. I’m a single mom with very limited family, friend and community support. I’ve nearly died three times this year and 1-2 times every year for the past six years. My kids are very depressed about almost losing me again. My kids both have treatment resistant depression, CPTSD, endometriosis/ademomyosis,
rheumatoid arthritis, Crohn’s, epilepsy, polymigratory arthritis, degenerative spine disease, scoliosis, reynaud’s syndrome, cardiac issues, migraines and fibromyalgia, complex regional pain syndrome. The crushing guilt of being an ineffective mother, giving birth to two children who each have 5-6 illnesses inherited from me and their father who hurt them physically and emotionally especially when I was in the hospital getting 8 reconstructive spine surgeries with hardware, screws, plates in nine years covering most of my spine. My son is autistic spectrum disorder high functioning and affectionate. I’m so lucky to be here for my kids with my kids. I understand that without emergency surgery and a fully invasive opening, I wouldn’t be here today. I’m grateful to Gd for saving me. What have I done to my kids. I wasn’t so sick when I got pregnant. I didn’t know when I got pregnant that the kids father’s side has most of the same illnesses and there are many. Now both my kids, as they mature, their health diagnoses increase to longer terrifying lists of diagnoses including many of my dozens of disorders including from Crohn’s, epilepsy, an unspecified connective tissue disorders, immune modulatory disorder, endometriosis, interstitial cystitis, seronegative rheumatoid arthritis, primary immunodeficiency disorder, MGUS/multiple myeloma (monoclonal gammopathy of unknown significance), demyelinating syndrome like MS without known disease prognosis. This year I almost died three times from necrotic aspiration pneumonia with large abscesses in my lungs. I am eligible for the reversal ileostomy surgeries (2 surgeries- the first 8-10 hours is almost as devastating as the emergency colectomy. There’s a small window (4months) when surgeons can do this. It’s my only chance to get my life back to live w/o an ostomy. It’s a long process after surgery and the stoma is repaired in a follow up surgery. I need this surgery. It’s a long long recovery and major surgery with many complications. How can I do this to my family? I worry that my son & daughter can’t handle this much disruption, stress, sadness. We have such little support and no one called my kids to check on them as the plan we created was supposed to happen in emergencies. No one called. Every one gave excuses, so disappointing. Such a problem for future surgeries. I know they should be independent by now yet given their medical status, being an independent young adult is very challenging. I’m so thankful to my daughter who has been helpful beyond any thing I could have hoped for. She’s incredibly giving and loving to me. It’s hard to be here. Not functional, not effective.

#UndifferentiatedConnectiveTissueDisease #MixedConnectiveTissueDiseaseMCTD # primaryimmunodeficiencydisorder #PrimaryImmunodeficiency #AutoimmuneImmunodeficiency #CrohnsDisease #PTSD #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #ComplexRegionalPainSyndrome #CongenitalHeartDefect #Epilepsy #RheumatoidArthritis #DegenerativeDiscDisease #Scoliosis #InterstitialCystitis #Pneumonia #AspirationPneumonia
#necroticpneumonia
#Gastroparesis #gastrointesinlbleed #RheumatoidArthritis #singleparent #SjogrensSyndrome #DiffuseIdiopathicSkeletalHyperostosis #Diabetes #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #Ileostomy #Colectomy

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Faking it, until I make it

I awoke this morning after yet another night on the sofa with Binks, my wee dog. I have chronic insomnia and so much pain I can’t climb the stairs. I was in luck last night, the start of a meteor shower, so many shooting stars, who needs fireworks? A brief glimpse the Northern Lights and a cup of tea at 3 o clock.
I’ve just kissed my husband, Paul before he goes to work. Every morning I make his sandwich, yes he could do it himself and happily would, but, it’s my little way of paying all his kindness back.
Ever since I had my Covid vaccine 3 years ago I have a shingles type rash in my genital area. It’s so, so painful, it’s like having pants full of fire ants.

It’s been a very, very rough 4 month’s, I’ve fallen down the stairs 4 times, bruised myself very badly, I’ve had Covid, 2 very dear, very fit friends died, far too soon. One a super fit, marathon running woman, days from her pension, had a back ache, went to the doctor and was told she had stage 4 pancreatic cancer, she lived just 11 days after diagnosis. The other a lovely, gentle bear of a man died from heart failure. One 65, the other just 60. It made me reflect that despite this godawful disease of mixed connective tissue disease, fibro, Behçet’s and rheumatoid arthritis, I’m still here. I’m so in tune with my body and its numerous creaks and groans I’d notice change. I miss them and will plant them roses in my rose garden. I’ve planted too many over 3 years.
Today I’m taking Binks my puppy out to the forest, it’s literally just our my door. I use my wheelchair, she runs ahead. I hope to sew butterfly wings for my granddaughter Emma and make a unicorn hobby horse.
I’m grateful for every moment of every day, could it be better? Of course, but, it’s still pretty wonderful.

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