Why do I obsess over small things, eventually turning them into the frustration of my partner?
My partner gets upset when he perceives I’m ignoring him, but in reality I have adhd as well and sometimes get lost in thoughts or get sucked into scrolling. I live inside my head most days and I’m very easily distracted. I am very spacey and dissociate a lot, I understand how annoying it could be for him.
like yesterday morning g I had just woke up and was scrolling while laying down in bed, he came and stood next to the bed and I grabbed his arm still watching my video, he asked if I wanted food, I didn’t answer right away and continued looking at my phone. I said “one sec” and he just said “ok” in a short irritated way, walking out of the room.
I immediately thought he was mad at me and got up to ask him.if he was mad. He then told me if it were the other way around you would have expected me to drop what I’m doing for your attention, I tried explaining my side and he told me they were excuses and “he didn’t want to make it a big deal” well then I obsessed about it and apologized profusely.
I stayed in bed all day, forgoing my work Xmas party because I threw myself into a depressive exhaustion.
can anyone relate?
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