Personality Disorders

Hi, I've lived my entire life with my dad who has bipolar 2, although he is medicated and a very responsible parent and also feels guilty about me having to witness his episodes, talking bout the matter was a taboo even with my parents, I ended up suffering because of this as I had no one to reassure me or talk to me about my feelings, I ended up creating a shell and I have been diagnosed with both schizoid and paranoid personality disorders, which my psychiatrist believes besides genetics, my childhood has played a huge role in it. As of now I'm extremly suicidal and depressed, I have no way to live separately from my parents and being in my father's presence even if he is smiling is irritating feels dangerous. I am losing my mind and spiraling every second of the day and i have failed multiple attempts. Is there any way to distract me from these thoughts amd give me a peace of mind besides medication? My psychiatrist said I need antipsychotics but I am in an unfavourable situation and unable to take meds. And family therapy is not possible due to my father being sensitive.

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Been somewhat of a busy day but just woke up from a well needed nap after running my errands this morning, and finally the irrigation company showed up to fix a leak on my yard irrigation pump that they had already repaired a month ago. Then a run to Guitar Center for a 1 of a kind strap lock for my acoustic guitar. I blame my nap on Lotus lol as he made my mind run all night thinking of his issues and his songs. Even though I pop in on occasion, some of you I think of often. Lotus, you inadvertently started my mind running last night as Thinking of what you accomplished. I hate to keep repeating myself but I spent 32 years in the medical field 14 years in the ER and 18 as Lt/FF/Paramedic with a large Fire Department here where a injury took my career away. But that was my prior life. I then had to reinvent a new purpose in life when I found this site. Lotus, whether you realize it or not, found a way to help both yourself, others members here and believe it or not even the Psychologist and Psychiatrist by your songs. The average human brain weighs approximately 10-12 pounds , it is our most complex organ and we use only about 10% of it. Psychiatrist use what’s called a DSM book. ( it’s thick as hell ) but it basically goes through personality traits and habits. That’s how your given a diagnosis. If you ever get a chance look through it. You’ll find out everyone suffers from Borderline Personality Disorders. But Psychiatrists who prescribes your meds usually have regimen Try this one first, if it doesn’t work we,ll try this one so on and so on. Some are very predictable depending on your diagnosis and usually have good outcomes. But Lotus, your songs can be a teaching tool to these professionals. It will help them understand more of what’s going on. In a song, your spilling your heart. In a office appointment setting, most never truly open up to what’s really going on. In your songs you open up completely. I bet MD students in that field can learn a lot just by listening to them. You might have found your purpose! It took me 7 years after my injury and surgery to find mine. Keep it up. If you need help just yell. ( I’m a past army vet as well ). I hope everyone is having a blessed day and finding a place to keep out of the heat! P.S. Plenty of water all !……David

Hi, my name is Tara. I'm curious about personality disorders, depression and self-harming thoughts.

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Hi, my name is Cornflowercollie13. I'm looking for
Community and support. I’m currently living with an active addiction and in an abusive marriage. Mental, emotional, verbal and at times physical but not for a while. I work as an adult entertainer from home and live in a city where I have no close friends. The only people I talk to are my online clients and my dogs and various animals that I care for. I feel myself disappearing and it scares me. I feel like I used to be a vibrant, outspoken, artistic woman and now I’m an empty shell. I would love to find people who are either in the same industry as myself. Or people who are also actively choosing to stay in an abusive relationship. Animal lovers a plus. #MightyTogether #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #SubstanceUseDisorders #Trauma #PersonalityDisorders #MightyPets