The last 2 weeks of the year are usually the toughest ones for me. Christmas is okay but it sort of reminds me of how I'd love to see my family more often. Many of us can relate to the feeling of wanting to do so much more and give so much more (emotionally) to our family and loved ones but not being able to due to depression, anxiety and at the same time having to work and function as a "normal human being". Sometimes we have a lot going on, without even having a lot going on: I work 6 hours a day (home office), I take care of my cat and do some house chores; it really doesn't seem so complex but mental illness makes it ten times harder. For some of us, Christmas is just another reminder that everyone's running a race at their own pace and we're already behind because of the backpack full of sh*t we carry everywhere. I know life shouldn't be a race but it surely feels like it; everyone's trying to get to the finish line but we're not even sure where to start.
Then, that week between Christmas and NYE is so confusing.. Everyone's on vacations, enjoying their time with their friends or family, setting goals and new resolutions for next year. Meanwhile, that last week made me feel numb and completely dissociated from reality, I felt a bit empty inside and worried about my future. We see a lot of 2023 recaps on social media and all we can think of is how to be able to make the most out of another year. Sometimes I can't even make the most out of my day and there I am overthinking about what goals should I set and what things could I accomplish for the next 365 days lol.
Therapy taught me to live in the present, I guess it's because I can't afford thinking about my future if my current situation is not as good as it could be. There is so much pressure to be better and do better these days but I guess what I wanted to say is that we are not forced to change and improve all of a sudden. 2024 is not going anywhere, we still have 12 months to go, so instead of thinking of how little or how much you did in 2023, let's just take one step at a time and live our life day by day.
I'd like to start by setting small and doable goals that I know I struggle with, and focusing on reaching these goals day by day:
Drinking enough water, cleaning my room more often, doing my bed everyday, practicing being grateful and empathetic towards others and also towards myself. These are just some of the goals I'll be setting for myself every day and if I don't get to do it, that's fine, I'm trying my best and so are you, and so is everyone here.
Sometimes we can't even try our best and we just try until we're tired, and that's okay too. For 2024 I guess what I want the most is to be patient and understandig to myself, and to try my best, even if that means something as simple as doing the laundry: I'll try and make the most out of it. I hope you do too :)
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