It's a New Year and a time that is hardest for some people. I understand this, because for many years this time of year was the very worst for me. November, December, and January were my 3 hardest months of the year. 15 years ago this time of year, I was declared "disabled". It was heart shattering, because I had just spent the previous 4 years busting my butt in college studying Mathematics and Accounting. I wanted to be an Actuary and work for a big insurance company.
I have finally gotten past that lost dream and have semi moved on. Now I focus, not on the future (like before), but the present. I try to enjoy every little moment with a friend or dear family member. It's now about the present day and making it the very best that I can. Some days are better than others, but today I stand before you, saying that I am a stronger, more vibrant person than ever. I have a lot to give society and so do you, friend. Whether it's just a caring smile to a neighbor or just taking care of yourself by eating healthy. Or heck, if it's treating yourself to an icecream sundae. You are a valuable member of society. No matter how small you may feel, you are not. You are way more important than you can ever anticipate. (A little self talk, here!). Anyway, it's been 7 months that I have been Opioid free!!!!! My first New Year not on any pain medication. Not even Ibuprofen or Tylenol. I don't know how I have survived, but I rang in the New Year with a completely clear head for once. I never abused my medication, but that didn't bring back any lost clarity. Even at prescribed levels, I was always in a sort of a haze. But, like I said before, I stand before you to reclaim my clarity on my life. I love seeing life for what it truly is. The good, the bad, and the ugly, but mostly the beautiful!!!!!
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