Rare Disorder

I live weekly sometimes daily with migraines and throbbing headaches over my right eye.. I have difficulty with retrieving words to complete my sentences. I am dizzy (vertigo) almost all the time. I live with overwhelming nausea and take antiemetics every single day. I have difficulty with walking & other motions. I make decisions almost without thinking about the consequences. I get confused easily. There’s a name for all this and more… an creature inside my head called an Arachnoidcyst or Arachnoid cyst.
Sure it sounds like something we’ve seen in a movie 🍿 once (or not at all if you have a phobia to spiders like my daughter). Whether you realize it or not (because a Doctor has dismissed it) it too may be living inside your head.
It all started with symptoms of tremors worsening (not related) and temporary paralysis on my left side of my body (again Doctor “says” it’s not related) hmmm…
My primary Neurologist (who knew the brain was so complicated that there are multiple Doctors to treat & observe it) just kidding…
Well he suspected a stroke (yikes) & ordered a brain and cervical spine MRI.
Results showed (in part) a pocket of fluid sitting on my brain as well as my pituitary gland (no biggie) I’m being sarcastic if you can’t tell. Of course I only got to read the generated data from an email with no explanation or call back (where’s the concern?) I literally was researching and typing in words I’ve never heard of before… Google define “asymmetric prominence of the right frontal extra-axial CSF space at the superolateral convexity level” (of course I had to break it down) My autocorrect couldn’t even handle me typing it in and I had to literally copy word for word to input into this sentence. Hope it made sense? It doesn’t to me but lots of things that used to be not problem for me are extremely difficult now. It must be “growing” (who is feeding this monster in my head?!?!)
To be continued (because I have lost my sense of where I’m going with all of this.. sorry not sorry) …

Oh yeah, anyone else living with a creature inside their head???

P.S. “for grins”
my actual MRI living creature in my head

#arachnoidcyst #Migraines #neurologicalsymptoms #RareDisorder #primaryarachnoidcyst #secondaryarachnoidcyst #Migraines #migraineswithaphysicalcause (not because of stress like my primary Doctor originally diagnosed) #medicalgaslighting #MedicalPtsd

Nothing is more comforting to me than searching Pinterest in how I’m feeling when I become the monster under the bed off and on during the week. I have thousands of heartfelt quotes which in a way keep track of how I’ve been feeling over the years in times of depression and anxiety/panic. Most times it’s within my relationships; whether it be my friends or family, or my lover. It’s sometimes about when I feel alone in life with having Albright’s Hereditary Osteodystrophy: one of the most rare medical conditions in the world. I have NEVER seen another person like me. Ever.
Majority of the time, people tell me to suck it up and that I’m not as bad as some people. Sure. Maybe it sounds easy to the “healthy” person, but not to the person with feelings of alienation and misunderstanding. I have my breakdowns when I can’t seem to get out what I want to say the way I intended it to come out, I have times when I get so sensitive that as soon as someone sounds like they’re disappointed when they call me over I begin tearing up. I have anger issues when I’m not being listened to and when I can’t do something right. I have crying sessions in my room when my family comes home for holidays because I never have anything to contribute to conversations. And just about every day so far, I’ve been feeling depressed because I cant seem to grasp how to communicate with anyone. I have massive fears of judgement and imagining myself in the later half of my lifetime makes me cringe because I’m not sure what’s to come. I make so many goals for myself but yet nothing goes right.
All I can really say is that this is this one thing that keeps me padding myself along. Having being born with such obsticals has created mental health issues which have manifested over the years to the point where I’m not sure who I am anymore. That’s why I created my board called “Finding Me”. #Anxiety #Depression #FunctioningDepression #PanicAttacks #MentalHealth #Memes #Trichotillomania #alone #ADHD #RareDisorder

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Recovering from my first thoracic outlet decompression surgery. My symptoms from MdDS have skyrocketed and I have a long journey to recovery, but I’m home and improving every day. #TOS #MdDS #RareDisorder #journeytorecovery #

I made bread for the first time and DID NOT mess it up. I cannot express how happy this made me. What was your “win” this week? Caregiving doesn’t leave much time for anything sometimes. This dough comes together in MINUTES and all you have to do is toss it in the oven for 30 minutes.

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I thought that this bingo card might help you with my recent post about self care routines! Especially if, like me, sometimes you don’t know where to start!

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