I see memes as a way of coping with pain, and other people here seem to like them, so I figured that I’d keep adding them :)
I’ve not been well. As I posted before (I think), I’ve been having palpitations and shaking which I blamed on anxiety.
Of course I engaged in more self-care and increased my medication as a result, and it’s been a month since I did so. Unfortunately things aren’t getting better. They’re getting worse, but I just ignored it up until a few days ago.
On Tuesday, I had an episode which reminded me of my own mortality. I had had palpitations most the day, something I took no real notice of as it was normal to me. Then at 2am, my chest started hurting. I took Gaviscon because it started off as a burning pain, but the Gaviscon didn’t work and it changed to a kind of “tightening” pain.
Earlier on in that day, I had noticed my ankles were quite swollen (I’d noticed it for a few weeks but it was very minor so again I ignored it before). So putting the pain and the swelling together scared me. I tried distractions and even another dose of gaviscon. After a few hours, I decided to lay down and it relieved it and I managed to get some sleep.
I contacted the doctors the next day and had a call yesterday morning which was them basically reading off a piece of paper. I have another call this afternoon and I hope it’ll be more helpful.
It was so scary though. Normally chest pain doesn’t get to me, but for some reason that night I was scared. Everything had been kind of fuzzy/ fading too, so that was what really got me.
A reason why I had left doing anything about the palpitations before is because I just feared that the doctors wouldn’t be able to find out what was up/ not even bother to find out. I still do worry, as the episodes aren’t very predictable (the only thing I’ve noticed is that they’re typically at night/ in the evening, which is when the doctors is closed).
Another reason why I had left it is because I have had palpitations for over a year now, and I never actually associated the swelling with it before (I had swelling in my ankle before, but I worked long hours in a physical job so I blamed it on that). I guess it’s kind of complacency.
I hope everyone else here is okay. I keep meaning to check in, but I’ve been so busy that it took the episode the other day for me to remind myself to slow down.
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