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So I’ve noticed those with CPTSD and PTSD often report similar experiences. I hadn’t realized how typical my own were until I read others stories. So I thought I’d make a list of common shared experiences in those with PTSD/CPTSD…

#1 Your abusers and told you the abuse was normal and everyone does it ergo you’re being dramatic.

#2 You blamed yourself without even realizing it. Let’s face it we don’t walk away thinking it’s our fault clear as day. That’s illogical. But we walk away with doubts that eventually dig into our heads while we’re not even paying attention. The next thing we know we think we’re inherently bad and deserving of being treated as such.

#3 You switch back and forth from having sympathy for you’re abuser to believing they’re evil incarnate.

#4 You wonder if you’re too damaged to think for yourself. If you don’t have experience in what’s right then can you know what’s wrong?

#5 You avoid watching any movies or tv shows with extremely painful emotional expressions yet are strangely drawn to them.

#6 You wake up feeling panic and/or anxiety and expecting something terrible to happen to you every day.

#7 You struggle to set necessary boundaries with others because you worry they’ll reject you. Perhaps you feel you’re not worthy of boundaries.

#8 You don’t trust anyone and struggle with emotional intimacy. Perhaps you feel scared everyone is going to hurt you.

#9 You have chronic migraines, irritable bowels, and/or body aches all the time.

#10 You need to be in control of everything at all times so you know what’s up. Even things that to others seems inconsequential.

#PTSD #CPTSD #Trauma #Abuse

Following is the list of the ten things out of many more which my special needs little boy taught me, its been three and half years that hes no longer with me,but still continues to teach me about resilience, hope,miracles and strength. #1 . MIRACLES HAPPEN: I started believing in miracles ,coz I got to see them quite often, the developmentally delayed hypotonic child who couldn't raise his neck at ten months became the wonder boy who would be jumping up and about. #2 . YOUR CHILD BECOMES YOUR BIGGEST STRENGTH: My son showed me courage like a warrior I never knew he could be,he taught me to over power week emotions,made me rational, more logical, made me aware of my inner strength, the harder it got the tougher I became. #3 : BE KIND:One of the best things he taught me was to Always Be Kind, at times he was laughed upon, made fun of, but he would always respond with a smile and would often say Sorry,I've learnt to say Sorry and Thankyou, sometimes a bit too much. #4 :STUBBORNNESS BECOMES YOUR FINE TRAIT :When you are living with a medically complexed child ,and you have all the other issues to deal with also,Stubbornness comes from within, you need to be head strong and stubborn. #5 : YOUR INSTINCT IS ALWAYS CORRECT: Even if it's a teeny tiny gut feeling Go for it,theres something super powerful about a Mothers instinct, even if the labs or scans tell differently, follow your gut instinct, it comes from the heart. #6 . YOU DONT PANIC ANYMORE: Even though the stormy waves will be gushing to and fro in your life,you learn to remain calm,not panic ,take charge, amidst , my sons dangerous seizures, with constant falls,cuts and stitches,I discovered the New Calm Me. #7 :YOU LEARN EVERY DAY HOW TO BE A BETTER MOM:Learning becomes apart of you,no matter how learned you are, your child gets to become your biggest teacher,you learn the lessons of patience, strength and unconditional love, your child will make you the advocate, you always wanted to meet. #8 :YOU WILL BE MAKING EXTRA ORDINARY NEW BEST FRIENDS:Along the journey of raising my little boy, I met similar and stronger moms,who continue to inspire me till date with their strength, wit and hope. #9 :YOU'VE GOT THIS: No matter what the world,or Google,or doctors or therapists tell you, You've always got this, You become your biggest support,every time you get knocked down,you'll stand up stronger than before. #10 . ACCEPT and LET GO: sometimes ,comes a point when the journey is also about braving through the most painful moment,After all the storms you've sailed through, you also learn to surrender, to the will of Al Mighty, You surrender and you let go, only for the memories to give you new strength.

I have had Chronic pain for nearly 20 years now and never have i been called a Toddler That is until I went to Church with my love. I have on Methocarbamol and AS Tylenol for years. Today I was a #8 . I took my Metho, Tylenol and Diazepam because I had movements to my arms and to my head during Church. I was embarassed and my love usually understanding wanted to finish hearing the sermon. He wanted to socialize and I just wanted to leave as i began to wimper. i guess I am a toddler. I didn't scream but i did leave. Me a toddler at my age-you bet!
Barbara Fortin
#DistractMe

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Q: Is everyone with Morgellons disease covered in skin lesions? How big are they? How long do they last?
A: According to the most renowned Morgellons disease clinician in the U.S who has treated approximately 1,000 patients, Dr. Virginia Savely, in her book "Morgellons: the legitimization of a disease" only 75% of this patient population suffered with disfiguring skin lesions. They range from the size of a pimple to gaping holes in the side of ones face and testicle sack. Ssee photos in her book for yourself or full colour photos on her website, www.gingersavely.com/morgellons-book/, but be warned that you will be disturbed. The lesions can last for weeks, months, years and even decades. There is no known treatment for these skin lesions as they do not respond to any known pharmaceuticals or alternative treatments - AND THEY ITCH BECAUSE OF THE KERATIN/COLLAGEN FIBERS THAT GROW IN THEM.

Since being diagnosed 14 years ago, And in excruiating pain today from RSD/CRPS, I have a great PM Doctor, who prescribed me a different medication until I felt combination that works, I also have a great support system, as well as despite pain #8 , I still keep it moving. Never letting this disease keep me down, or out. I guess I just keep a positive outlook on life in general, since it is no cure, why worry? Just keep it moving.