benzodiazepines

I’m so sick of everything. Last night I was trying to fix something and because I’m a useless piece of trash I ended up breaking the figure I was trying to fix. Now it’s not available in my country and I had to pay 71 candian dollars to import it from Canada which will take about 3 weeks or so, so 3 weeks without it great! My mother died of a heart attack, my dad’s got parkinson, my aunt has cancer and my uncle had a heart attack, I too am suffering from many diseases and I’m close to going back to university. The way I am feeling I can’t do shit. I should just give up and go somewhere where nothing will bother me, wish I could. Anyways the pressure was so much that I decided to take 1mg of clonazepam when I’m supposed to take 0.25 mg in cases I need it. I don’t know how bad that is but to be honest I don’t know what to do. If anyone can read this I’d appreciate it cause I feel like a complete loser who can’t get his life together

Anxiety Doc will not continue, more than 2 mths(approx),these types of meds, because of addiction issues. #Benzodiazepines #Anxiety #Addiction

Hi all i read online that lorazepam is prescribed only for short term periods but i been on it for almost 2 years? 😱😱 Can someone tell me if im a drug addict? Cos i can't sleep without it. 😢

Hi! I’ve been diagnosed with OCD, Eating Disorder, Panic Disorder and Depression from Complex Childhood Trauma. I’ve been prescribed anti-depressants and medications for sleep. I’m also on benzos Lorazepam and Alprazolam, and have been taking them for more than 1.5 years.

I’ve tried to control my anxiety to prevent taking to much of the benzos but this has only backfired. I try not to take them on days when I’ll be chilling or just relaxing but my panic attack and severe anxiety will go on for hours. Gradually, even if the anxiety reduces slightly over time, other symptoms like intrusive thoughts, twitching and mental fog will come up. I usually concede defeat and take the pills after a few hours.

I know I need them now (I’m going through a period of many stressors) but I don’t want to rely on them forever and I just want to know if anyone had similar experiences and don’t mind sharing? About the medication or experience with severe anxiety that is debilitating. Any tips or ideas will be much appreciated.

#PanicAttack #Anxiety #AnxietyDisorders #AnxietyDisorder #PanicDisorder #ObsessiveCompulsiveandRelatedDisorders #IntrusiveThoughts #Depression #EatingDisorders #complextrauma #CPTSD #Mentalillnessfeelslike #MentalHealth #PsychiatricMedication #Benzodiazepines

Just feel like I have no where to go with this pain and sadness. My bf my friends even my mum can’t say the right thing. My therapist tells me I need to find that love within. I know that but in the moment I want to self harm and feel desperately alone in this world 😢😢😢 please tell me I’m not actually alone
Also really really trying not to txt my boyfriend something antagonistic but really want more love from him 😢#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PremenstrualDysphoricDisorder
#Selfharm #Benzodiazepines #Alcohol

So I’m autistic and have ADHD and my doctor recently upped my dosage of Dexedrine and stopped the use of my clonazepam at night. I’m glad to be getting off the clonazepam because I’m tired of playing chemical jenga with my brain just to be able to wake up and sleep every day. I’m at almost a week without it and I have gotten maybe 5 hours of sleep since Sunday night. I’m honestly just annoyed more than anything. I’m a ballet dancer and it’s really bad for me not to get good sleep every night. Ugh I’m just done with it already. Anyone else have this problem or something similar? Just want some company 😓 #Autism #ADHD #Benzodiazepines

I don't know if this needs it but just in case I'll include #TriggerWarnings.
I feel this is very difficult to say in an articulate manner, so apologies if I am being crude or inadvertently insensitive.

I have reached a point of my illnesses that I am now very seriously less concerned with risk of #overdose compared to risk of #Suicide . I am not being treated effectively (or *at all* for acute knee injury) for #ChronicPain that is causing more #SuicidalThoughts than my #Depression , #Anxiety and #CPTSD combined.

I need help. #CheckInWithMe
I have an appt tomorrow with my psychiatric nurse practitioner. I have multiple #ChronicIllness (es) and I have #CPTSD #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #PanicAttacks #PanicDisorder #MajorDepressiveDisorder #DiabetesType1 #Fibromyalgia #EhlersDanlosSyndrome #ComplexRegionalPainSyndrome #Scoliosis #CarpalTunnelSyndrome #TriggerFinger ... aaaaannnnddd the list goes on. I am struggling daily "recovering" from a knee surgery I never should've had, a grade IV tear of my tendon on the opposite leg/ foot, neither a good leg to stand on. I have needed to use my crutches for a year and a half which has now caused permanent damage to my hands. the trigger finger pain in my hands is far greater because I had no clue my carpel tunnel had returned. I am unable to walk without supportive braces/ crutches and I have just re-injured my knee that has landed me back on both crutches. I am awaiting prior authorization for my wheelchair. I attempted to harm myself this summer, which has now become part of my permanent medical record and cruelly misdiagnosed a multitude of new barriers. when I say that I attempted to harm myself, I say that lightly but seriously. I knew I needed help because my pain (emotional, mental, spiritual, physical etc.) caused me to write a letter. I had to be honest with myself that even if this was only a "just in case" letter, the very fact I wrote it was enough to warrant help.
here's what really troubles me: I *harmed* myself by stealing pain medicine from someone I loved and who trusted me. I am not a thief nor a liar. I truly believe that I was more bothered by the extreme shame I felt than by the non-lethal combination of medication I took in an effort to finally sleep through the night, just one night.
I am deeply embarrassed writing this... I have been on long term #Benzodiazepines, I am a fully compliant and responsible non-abusing patient, and I literally took two pain pills at a time of the five I stole., thus the issue of "failing" a drug test for which I completely and honestly told on myself. I was totally transparent.
I am severely depressed, but I am severely crippled by the physical pain that has exacerbated the emotional struggle and thus the internal problem of risk vs benefit. if you made it through my rambling, I thank you sincerely. even if you only skimmed, I still thank you sincerely. Namaste🙏