heartpalpatations

Well a massive thing has happened in my life since I last updated: I had my #Surgery (three days ago).

The day after it was originally cancelled, I had a call that gave me a new date and it went ahead! I had to have a #COVID19 test and MRSA test 2 days beforehand which both came back negative which was good.

So I went in on Wednesday and had to stay overnight at the hospital with this cold gel thing on my mouth which has left me with sores.

I got some reactions to the anaesthesia which included #lightheadedness , #Confusion and #shaking which weren’t fun but I got through it and managed to get discharged the next day.

While I was at the hospital, I was on the maximum #Painrelief I could be apparently and they were constantly putting stuff in my cannula (which wasn’t fun because it hurt my hand and made going to the toilet etc difficult as they didn’t initially put it on something I could wheel around).

Speaking of cannulas, I had one in BOTH hands. They had to try twice with the one in my right hand (they got it in the second time) but when I woke up, I had one in my left hand too and they never used the one in the right hand aside from maybe in the surgery (and they refused to remove it until the day after the surgery. Got some lovely bruising now).

Anyways, I’m on a few different #medications now and getting all sorts of #SideEffects such as #heartpalpatations , getting too warm (not a temperature but higher than my normal 36.4~ as reached 37.2), again lightheadedness and shaking and also #nausea which sucks.

Will all be worth it in the long run though, just suffering at the moment and did break down yesterday at being frustrated about not being able to do much and struggling with energy for simple tasks such as eating or even sitting up. Got back up though about half an hour after feeling sorry for myself with the mindset of “I can either sit here feeling sorry for myself, or I can do stuff”.

My anxiety has been getting worse. Recently I had a competition and after I had started hyperventilating and had heart palpitations. I haven’t been on anxiety medication since I was a kid because it gave me suicidal thoughts. What do you think I should do? #Anxiety #heartpalpatations #Sports

#InflammatoryBowelDiseaseIBD #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS #Gastroparesis #heartpalpatations
I made it to my doctor's appointment. The doc said that he wants to keep trying to figure out if there may be some underlying condition causing all of these problems. He is going to do some brainstorming and then run labs on some possibilities (probably metabolic or hormonal). He also ordered a 48 hour heart monitor from the hospital so sometime this week I have to go to the hospital and get hooked up (then I take the monitor home for 48 hours) then 2 days later bring the monitor back to the hospital to be analyzed. He wants to see me again next week to go over the heart monitor results and discuss other possible conditions (he just wants to cover his bases he doesn't think he will find anything, he's just making sure).

I was able to eat a little bit today which has been a huge relief since I haven't been able to keep anything down for almost a week. I just hope it doesn't cause any kind of flare or discomfort (though I know it will at least a little). But I need the nutrition so it's worth it.

An article is being published. But I know it’s not my best work. I pressed send prematurely and honestly didn’t think it’d get published. I emailed asking if I could do some edits before publication. My anxiety is sky high, I feel inadequate, and like my message will be misunderstood because I had failed to flesh out sections. I’m a perfectionist, and I bloody hate that something this trivial has sent me into a tailspin