Itsokay

Gave it my all, but took a mighty fall,
Love's grip so tight, it claimed my soul's thrall.
Now my mind seeks solace for the void within,
Aching heart, searching for ways to begin.

Emptiness and darkness, pain's ceaseless rain,
A struggle to comprehend, accommodate, restrain.
Who knew a friendship could be so toxic and bleak,
Leaving my body anoxic, longing to seek

Survival, I found, by grace of the divine,
Hustling for a life where my spirit can finally shine.
No more hurt, no more tears to spill,
I won't neglect those who uplift and instill

Belief in me, true friends who stay,
Unyielding in love, even when skies turn gray.
Those who stand strong through life's hardest test,
They are the ones who deserve my best.

Pushing away those who truly care,
Leaves one gasping for air, lost and unaware.
I've been through it, and now it's your turn,
May you learn from mistakes and the bridges you burn.

But through it all, I'll still be there,
With abundant love and genuine care to share.
I know the pain of abandonment's sting,
But fear not, my support is no fleeting fling.

My heart is pure, my intentions sincere,
No prey to lure, no hidden agenda to adhere.
For humanity's sake, my mission's aim,
Fiery ambition runs deep in my veins.

Forgiveness and love, I choose to embrace,
No room for hatred, no enemy to chase.
So here's to the next chapter, the story's sequel,
Counting blessings, ensuring your path sees the sun's golden sheen.

No foes shall I keep, for all are equal,
Cheers to a life where compassion is fecal.
With open arms, I welcome what's in store,
A new journey awaits, and my heart's ready to explore.

#Friendship #Love #BestFriends #Toxic #Heartache #friendsfight #Itsokay #humanity #Acceptance #Hope #Positivity #Forgiveness #Healing

I grew up with a family where our culture has women being submissive and voiceless. Mental health is so taboo.. Talking about being depressed is taboo.. Because of that, I experienced childhood traumas, adult traumas, and until recently a few years, I decided to do something about it. I seemed help from a therapist. I seemed help from a doctor and got on anti depressants. When my dad died Dec 2020, that dose of anti depressants weren't working for me anymore, so my doctor doubled my dose, and I felt fine. I am on meds for migraines. I have switched anti depressants twice, and migraine meds twice as well. I joke and say I feel like a lab rat experiment with all the change in doses and meds. But it's just what I need to get through life. #Medicated #Anxiety #Depression #Itsokay #HealYourself

sometimes u think it’s not worth it, that’s ok.... I feel the same somedays. sometimes u feel like if u died no one would care... it’s okay I feel like that somedays too.... somedays u wanna just let go and end it all...... I feel like that too but I just want you to know, I love you. you are worth it, you are loved, I care for you. I don’t want you to go. stay with me and fight ❤️ you are loved. you are worth everything. it will be okay.
#SuicidalThoughts #Iloveyou #Itsokay #keepfighting #Depression #Anxiety #MentalHealth #keepgoing #imhereforyou #reachout #Insecure

Sucks feeling invisible in your own home. You want to talk to someone but know that you’ll get the same response. “Everything will be okay.” “Stop stressing.” “No one here wants you to die.” I get it. I know everything is going to be okay. I know I need to stop stressing. And I know no one wants me to die. But it’s hard. With these thoughts right when you wake up. I try so hard to stress less. And I try so hard to believe that no one wants me to die, but I’m invisible. No one would even notice. It’s just been a rough couple of weeks. Things will get better. I do believe that. I just hope that day where everything comes together shows up real soon, because I could use some good vibes.
#SuicidalIdeation
#Anxiety #Depression #Deepbreathe #Itsokay