manicdepression

Recently I was given a secondary diagnosis of #bi -polar 6 months ago.. I was mearly told it was #manicdepression which 4 months later was explained to me more.

As I sit here writing this, it perplexes me that so many individuals have #Co -morbid conditions that frankly they know nothing about.

I was so set in my recovery from my trauma and past I was positive I did not have anything else wrong.. ESP not chemically, until I realised the difference in the levels of mental illness we have..

For example; core content structure which enables your surface personality and structure. Think of it as a massive jaw breaker with load of layers, my #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder is my core content and that has cause conditions like anxiety to arise or mania..

My question is, is there anyone else out there struggling with this dual diagnosis, I’ve been diagnosed with my #BPD for over 7 years now and I thought I was in remission.. how sourly wrong I was.

Finding the perfect happy medium between the two is giving me the fear.. and to be honest I need some like minded friends.

I'm just wondering if anyone has any advice on how to stop or prevent triggers. I suffer from PTSD from my past abusive relationship and even though I left 7+ years ago I still have them, not as often as I used to but they are so severe still, I am left feel exhausted and emotional for days after and raising a family and working I don't have time for the debilitating feelings.
If I throw myself into work then I tend to end up on the manic side of things where I'll go, go, go and then fall into a depression.
Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated
#PTSD #manicdepression #domesticviolencesurvivor

Does anyone else feel like their mental condition/illness/issue (whatever the hell you wish to call it) STILL gets in the way of them having a happy & healthy relationship?? I always used to say “I’ll never get married and I have no desire to…EVER!” (Because I really didn’t have that desire or to have children for that matter). Recently, I met this awesome guy that I feel might be “the one”. However, I’m still so petty and have SO many toxic traits!! Today, I delete all of our Marco Polo videos and almost (but didn’t) block the dude on FB because I felt like he didn’t respond to my text because he didn’t like my response (MY assumption). That alone makes me feel like I’m incapable of ever having a healthy and sustainable, long-lasting relationship. I literally wear peppermint socks the way I keep putting my foot in my mouth!!!! Ugh. I feel hopeless. I’m not alone though, right?!
#manicdepression #MDD #Anxiety #Bipolar #NSSI #hopeless #help #Depression #Trauma #hurt #stupid #Pointless #suicidal

Please find a copy of Kay Redfield Jamison's An Unquiet Mind, A Memoir of Moods and Madness. Hope you enjoy reading this book as much as I have. #manicdepression

I’ve always struggled with low self-esteem. Thanks to a toxic home environment and being chronically bullied growing up, my self-esteem was non-existent for most of my life. I began to seriously work on it several years, and I’ve come a long way. It’s been a long, tough road learning unlearning so much. And I still have much work to do. But I wonder: could I ever have good self-esteem and have Bipolar 1 at the same time? Is chronic self-doubt common for anyone with bipolar? Because sometimes when I feel my self-esteem and self-respect improving, it also leads to a manic episode. When this happened last year, I thought I was a genius and even became super paranoid; hospitalization for me was a strong possibility. I want to feel better about myself, have more self-respect, and be more confident. But how can I do that and not trigger any episodes?
#BipolarDisorder #Bipolar1Disorder #lowselfesteem #Selfesteem #Confidence #Mania #Paranoia #manicdepression #BipolarTypeI