mentalpain

While reading a piece of writing for my Lit class, I came across a great quote describing what many of us feel. I feel that this accurately describes mental and emotional pain, whether from mental illness or chronic physical illness that takes a toll on you mentally and emotionally. I feel this especially describes the emotional pain associated with Borderline Personality Disorder which is known as the equivalent to third degree burns over 90% of your body.

This quote is from a writing titled "Babylon Revisited".

"They're not like aches or wounds; they're more like splits in the skin that won't heal because there's not enough material."

#TheMighty #MightyTogether #Pain #mentalpain #emotionalpain #ChronicIllness #MentalHealth #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

I’m just tired, emotionally and exhausted. Sometimes most of the time I have one thought want keep pushing and other just wants give up and end my life like for what reason should I keep going nothing good going for me I’m not trying to judge or I hope what I’m saying is not judging someone I’m just tired and I just need write it out public with my thoughts. I’ve been depressed before this pandemic and covid and it’s like now all of sudden everyone start to understand when other are going through anxiety or depression but yet they weren’t given a fuck before . Like my parents first the understood was willing to understood my depression but since I’ve been in the house with them for months they just be anxiety stress out cause they can’t go out or people been dying over and over from other family members and friends and they didn’t ask to die during everything while me on the othe hand is like I want to die I want to just be done shit not going any good direction for me knowing giving a damn to see if I’m good. No one cares . I go job that’s toxic everyday I’m numb driving here I work hospital and I see it all I’m dealing with cleaning covid rooms on daily basis and it’s sucks cause my job doesn’t really give a fuck about my well being I could die and they replace me in heart beat do they care if I’m okay do they check on me as a employee to see how im doing or tell me I’m doing a good job or thank me or anything In a form of appreciation the answer is NO no one care it’s like I have to act out to get attention and that’s not me I’ve never been that person. I just feel like my parents or sick of me and pushing me out and they way to express them selves with my depression sucks and to old in age to tell them what truama I been through in my pass. I also know people that do t do shit with there selfs or want to grow in life use people and yet they get a check from the government weekly doing nothing while I’m busting my sss everyday to work I hospital and get treated like I’m trash im tired I’m breaking and I’m just fed up #mentalpain #MajorDepression
Sorry if I hurt anyone feelings with my thoughts . I’m trying to be better I just don’t know how

So the mini story behind the question... I’ve had depression and bad anxiety for about 20 years if not longer which has definitely taken its toll from time to time in my life. About 10 years ago, I found out I had a labral tear, a pincer as well as bursitis. I’ve gone through 3 surgeries on that hip since 2013 and I’m still in pain. The open trochanter bursectomy was the only one that helped even though it’s perpetually swollen. I’ll need a new hip but I’m too young at this point.

So with all of that, I’ve been on so many varieties of pain medicine I can’t remember all of the names. I’m currently on a muscle relaxer, arthritis meds and general pain meds and that’s the only thing that gets me through the day. I’ve tested myself by not taking any of it for a few weeks to get a better idea of what I can and can’t handle. When I’m not on the meds I can’t do too much but I can do a little bit. It just seems that mentally I have a harder time when I’m in bad pain for a few days in a row whether I have medicine in my system or not and I was wondering what other people’s experiences have been.

Thanks!
Steph

My ex and I haven't been together for quite a while now but when we were together we had 2 beautiful boys and one angel baby girl (stillborn, anencephaly.) While we were together he would always reassure me that we would have a baby girl. Now he is having a baby girl with someone else and now I can't seem to get rid of the anxiety, depression and I haven't been sleeping too good. Also the urge to self-harm has been increasing steadily. What do I do? How do I get rid of the constant pain? The fact that he has been lying hasn't helped. #CheckInWithMe #depressed #Low #mentalpain #confused #New @H

Does anyone feel like their (social) anxiety kills all the joy and makes every day so hard that one can‘t think of a future; but still all one ever had was that disease and it has become a part of their character and identity so you’re just scared of the life that will come?
I feel like EVERYTHING I do is a mistake. #SocialAnxiety #Anxiety #Depression #Selfharm #AnxietyDisorder #mentalpain #quietborderline #SocialPhobia # #Therapy

I want to yell at people, say “ if it were that easy I wouldn’t be in SO much pain right now, but here we are, so...”, but I don’t, because I can’t afford to loose the few friends I have.

My boyfriend, my first actual relationship, seven months of dates and adventures, we broke up. He wants to be friends, he wants to stay close. The day after we broke up, he said he wants to get back together in the future. He wants to wait. He said he still loves me. He keeps checking to "make sure I'm okay". It hurts. I want things to be normal. I feel dead. I haven't ate in 72 hours. I began self harm again. I have had terrifying anxiety attacks since then. I am hurting. He was the only person I was willing to talk too. I hate people touching me. I let him after about two months of dating. He went to touch my face after we broke up and I screamed. I couldn't handle him touching me. I cried worse. I am now in counseling, and we are "friends", but it hurts. It hurts like Hell. #Anxiety#Relationships #Breakups#mentalpain#mental #PanicAttacks#Depression#Dangerous

I'm laying in bed trying to fight the most intense depressive episode yet. I send good vibes and prayers to anyone who goes through these moments like me. That we continue to fight even with no energy.
#Depression #MentalHealth #mentalpain