I'd like to share something with you that helped me last night when I was struggling.
Do you feel broken? I know I do. What's been done to me, what I feel, the way my brain has changed in its workings, it all makes me feel very broken. And I want the girl I was before this back. I want her back more than anything. And some days I just weep, I mourn for the girl I was before this, because she was so bright, so hopeful, so beautiful naive of the pain in this world.
But then I remembered the Japanese art of Kintsugi. They take broken pottery, the pieces that me and you would throw out, and they add gold to it to make it whole again. And I sat with it for a while, because no one could say that it was ugly even though you could still see traces of where it had been broken. And I thought, what if we had that opinion of ourselves? What if I, with a mix of self care, therapy, maybe some medication, and a lot of self love and support, was able to put myself back together with all that gold? I'd still be able to see the broken, but it would be beautiful.
I hope this little thought helps all you warriors on your road to recovery, we'll get there one day! #Anxiety #CPTSD #PTSD #MentalHealth #beautiful #keepfighting