So I didn’t get a job that I really wanted in Alaska. I still want to be in Alaska but the only way I can afford to move if I cash out on retirement. I can’t keep doing that when I want to move somewhere. It’s heart breaking and frustrating. Some districts will help with relocation costs but only when you turn in receipts. Meanwhile, I got hired on the spot to work for a state park/lake area for 1-2 months. I am quitting the Dollar General. Only had the job for two weeks but physically at my weight and standing all day, my feet and back hurt like nothing else at night. I can’t do it. Tonight I had to kneel down to get something and it took me like several tries to get up. It was humiliating and thank god there was no around. I need to lose at least 140 pounds but I always sabotage any effort with emotional eating or stress eating. I can’t keep going on like this. My feet hurt all the time. I’m just over everything. I did get a job and free for teaching in a nearby district, but pay is lower than I expected. I would be able to pay bills but nothing extra on my debt. That’s the whole point of moving to Alaska so I can get out of debt faster. But I don’t have the money to move so I will be taking the job offer. Just sucks. #Daydream #Weightissues #self -sabotage