need help
i have alot of work and things to do but can't do it i feel like there is a hole inside me and i'm trying to feed it but the more i try to more it's get bigger i need any tips i can't breathe i feel like i'm in hell and God torture me
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#BipolarDepression #Anxiety #MentalHealth #Depression #void #inneremptiness #hell
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I need help
i have alot of work and things to do but can’t do it i feel like there is a hole inside me and i’m trying to feed it but the more i try to more it’s get bigger i need any tips i can’t breathe i feel like i’m in hell and God torture me
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BipolarDepression #Anxiety #MentalHealth #Depression #Void #inneremptiness #hell
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The #Psychiatric appt. I mentioned earlier was fortunately changed from a ZOOM meeting to taken place over the phone!!! I couldn't get washed & dressed cuz of the extremity of the #Pain all over my body....(#ChronicPain / of / #Fibromyalgia )......#Fate actually worked in my favor today!!!! ~ Although I count myself blessed with a lot.....i I am not a lucky person.......(been thru #hell in my #past & things still don't usually. work out for me).....But it DID turn out to be a #good day today!!! Took extra 🌼#Medicine for my appt., & the pain has lessened a bit. .....ill catch up on my #Sleep & take a nap or else help ensure myself a good night's sleep & #HOPEFULLY #TOMORROW things will still be looking up- regarding the intensity of my body pain & my #Thoughts & #attitude & #mood !!! Am shouting out a big "YAYYYY"inside for today's turn of events!!! #grateful !!!!#thanks for the messages you've sent while I was #FreakingOut before my appt...... I haven't read them yet, (was panicking a but trying to deal with getting ready for the Zoom appt........but I saw notifications pop up on the app & felt the #Love !!! Thank you for your #Support !!!!💗🙋💕💕💕💕(((((BIG-HUGS))))))!!! 💗💕💕💕
If I had wings, I'd leave everything behind. I've been dealing with a lot at work and at home. I have men in my life in both of those places and none of them pay attention to me. I never being up me internal struggles to many, I find myself thinking about it all at work only to cry myself to sleep in the safety of my bedroom. That seems to be the heaven for me, while outside is Hell itself. I still struggle with the idea that I'm needed in this world. In my mind, it feels like I'm unwanted, disregarded, and occasionally acknowledged. I sit on the bathroom floor after coming home sometimes. I'm either letting things sink in or I'm crying my eyes out while trying not to make a lot of noise. I count they days until I see the psychologist. More and more I feel empty inside. More and more I feel like I need to distract myself from these intense emotions. More and more I think about dying. I don't expect much anymore, nor do I feel that there is anyone who can really understand me. #MentalHealth #Depression #Sadness #Emptiness #intenseemotions #Feelingunappreciated #feelinglonely #FeelingEmpty #Feelingsad #insidemyownhead #keepingthingstomyself #heaven #hell
I'm tired of this:
Good things just don't happen to me! I am that person who discovers an incredible fact, writes a book about it, but the book is almost invisible on Amazon. Here comes someone, reads the book, copies most of the story, and it becomes a top-selling book. It's been like this in my life for exactly 30 years! #injustice #BadLuck #Depression #thebadplace #hell
I’m a pretty indecisive person. A lot of the time I feel like I’m struggling to make a decision. I get racing thoughts with my aniexty. My aniexty feels like I’m a contestant on Hell’s Kitchen where all of my thoughts are like all of these orders in the kitchen, and then I start botching orders (like burning, over cooking and undercooking food) and the loudest thoughts of things I should be doing (like get out of bed, get coffee, take a shower, go back to sleep) are like Gordon Ramsey cussing out a contestant on Hell’s Kitchen. (sounds something like *Gordan Ramsey slamming a pan with a rack of lamb onto a table* “it’s raw!!! wake up”)
And sometimes when my thoughts are racing it’s like I’m frozen or a statue or something because I’m waiting for my mind to slow down or stop so I can decide what I’m https://doing.Sometimes I get like this where I’m sitting or laying down, feeling indecisive and numb and feel myself staring at a wall and feel like I’m holding my breath waiting for myself to make a decision. I think this morning it was because other than starting work soon (I work from home) I didn’t have a plan or schedule for myself because my husband is going out this morning job hunting and I thought I’d be helping brush off the car or something. I have lots of aniexty I’m working through in therapy but when I get like this, I need help working through it. #aniexty #racing thoughts #gordanramsey #hell ’skitchen
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