Alcohol Abuse

Hi, my name is PeriwinkleCanary62. I'm here because I need to utilize self care techniques so I can be emotionally able to support my 28yr old son with his struggle.of alcohol abuse, self destruction and possible PTSD or other mental concerns and is distancing himself from family and not working

#MightyTogether #Depression #Grief #Migraine #PTSD

Hello everyone, I'm having a hard time being intimate with my partner. I was molested when I was a child, suffer from military sexual trauma, raped by my first husband. Fell into a downward spiral of drug and alcohol abuse. Ive been clean and sober for six years now. But the intimacy is impossible for me sometimes. I'm so afraid of my wonderful partner touching me the wrong way and causing a bad memory or triggering memories. Hes been so patient and wonderful. I dont know how to find a way to make it stop. I dont want to be on psyche meds anymore.... It took me three years to ween off of all of that. I guess I'm hoping for some answers or advice. Maybe just talking with someone whos been "through it" might help. I dont know. Anyone have any words of wisdom?

My dreams were vague, and my talents small

All my life I’ve felt that I missed the call

To find the purpose that justifies my life

All I’ve found is disappointment, emptiness and strife

Traversing my exile as my disenchantment grew

I couldn’t fill my crack in the world without booze

Where once I’d hoped to set the world ablaze

I coped with my failures through a foggy haze

Woe-o woe-o woe-o woe-o woe

Woe-o woe-o woe-o woe-o woe

My bullies were relentless, unimaginative but cruel

The onslaught left me threadbare, torn nearly in two

For years I simmered on the high road as my limits cracked

Then I beat a bully down when I finally snapped

Facing prison time for felonious assault

The world sides with the abuser when it decides who's at fault

If this life has rules, they make no sense at all

The bullies win again, so I disappeared inside a bottle

Woe-o woe-o woe-o woe-o woe

Woe-o woe-o woe-o woe-o woe

Booze, there is so much that I want to forget

Blackout after blackout, disappointed again

The memories bleed through the spiderweb cracks

I see nothing in front of me, can only look back

Endlessly searching for where it went wrong

I am the weak, weeded out by the strong

When the only rule is pain, suffered alone

Suicide becomes the only way to atone

Woe-o woe-o woe-o woe-o woe

Woe-o woe-o woe-o woe-o woe

A parody of “The Trooper” by Iron Maiden

#Depression #Suicide #PTSD #Trauma #MentalHealth #AlcoholAbuse

Again this is in a poetic style but may not be considered a poem but after this it is all flash fiction, unless I feel inspired (again) to write poetry

Hear No Evil, See No Evil and Speak No Evil, visited Earth.

They looked upon the works of humanity and said:-

'I can't see what all the fuss is about.'

'I don't hear anything worth listening to.'

Speak No Evil said nothing.

They came to a wasteland of polluted filth, killed off by industrial chemicals.

'I can't see anything wrong with all this disrespect of the environment.'

'I can't hear any bird songs, which always irritated me about this planet anyway.'

Speak No Evil said nothing.

Taking off in their spaceship, they surveyed the landscape below, where a battle was taking place and people were dying in their thousands.

'It looks like it is all their own fault.'

'I hear no voices of dissent.'

Speak No Evil said nothing.

On they moved to another land, where water was scarce, crops had failed and people were starving to death in their hundreds of thousands.

'I see overpopulation and failure to plan,' said See No Evil.

'I've heard nothing to contradict this.'

Speak No Evil said nothing.

They came to a new land - again where suffering was rife. A plague had descended upon the people and many were dying in agony.

'I see nothing to concern us here.'

'Others tell me it is their failure at general hygiene level - they've brought this on themselves.'

Speak No Evil said nothing.

They decided to get closer to the land but before they could take their ship down, an immense storm devastated the topics below them, drowning many people and destroying the infrastructure.

'I see the same problem occurring over and over again - why don't they plan better for them?'

'I hear they are not much into forward planning and consider it The Supreme Beings fault that this happens.'

Speak No Evil said nothing.

The instruments on their ship displayed major seismic disturbances, to the west of their location.

Buildings fell, people were crushed and general mayhem followed.

'I don't see any lessons learnt from the past here, about natural disasters.'

'I've heard nothing from other visitors to this planet, that show building construction techniques have improved over the centuries.'

Speak No Evil said nothing.

Later they took their craft down again, to ground level and viewed life in more detail, using techniques of invisibility to move freely amongst the crowds. Violent crime, civil unrest, sick people dying on the streets, drug and alcohol abuse, sexual disease running rampant...

See No Evil shook his head and looked at Hear No Evil, who threw up his hands in despair. Both looked at See No Evil, who said nothing.

I have been struggling with depression and anxiety for a good portion of my life. It has made it hard for me to find and keep jobs. I also have essential tremors which makes things hard like writing. Recovering alcoholic and addict. I'm 49 years old and from Georgia.
Obviously new to this group. My anxiety has gotten so where I experience issues with being out of my house and out and about for more than a couple hours. Working on stuff with my therapist. She said I'm not ready to get a job and that I should start volunteering though I'm on disability income and they said that I need to at least find a job with the minimal hours to keep my benefits. I'm currently living with my parents and desperately trying to get back up on my feet though there have been a couple setbacks but fortunately it has nothing to do with drugs or alcohol. I'd love to make friends on here and be able to relate. Nice meeting everyone 🌻 #MentalHealth #Depression #Anxiety #EssentialTremor #Addiction #AlcoholAbuse

Does anyone else feel like they've wasted years of their life? (Whatever that means to you: whether it was an addiction, or feeling stuck in a situation or relationship, or just not moving forward in your goals. )

Do you ever stop mourning the years you've lost? What are practical ways that you can learn to forgive yourself and move forward?

#Depression #DepressiveDisorders  #Anxiety  #Addiction  #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #MentalHealth #Alcoholism #AlcoholAbuse