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For a while now I‘m wondering if I am ace. There are a couple of things that would add up. I‘ve never had a relationship and I‘ve never had sex. I don’t really like being touched or hugged. It rarely feels good. It could also be my chronic depression or the trauma relating to some things I experienced in my teens.

Most of the time I don‘t feel like missing out. Except sometimes when I‘m overthinking what being normal feels like and why I can‘t be like other people my age. By the way, I‘m 31 and still living with my parents. I don‘t think I‘ll ever move out because I can‘t afford living on my own and also I‘m good with my parents. I‘m having my own floor and things, so it‘s more like sharing the same house but not necessarily the same space. They don‘t even want me to pay rent. They‘re really cool and I‘m glad having them.

I‘m also not really worried being ace. It‘s just that it doesn‘t feel completely right since I sometimes feel sexual attraction and fantasize about being in a romantic relationship but almost never with people I really know. Also thinking about having sex with others feels pretty weird, still I‘m wondering if I‘d like it. So I‘m just curious. It‘s the same with romantic relationships.

I know there‘s also demisexual and demiromantic. Sometimes I even wonder why and if I even need any label. Maybe it would help, maybe not. Maybe it’s just my chronic depression stealing my vibe. I don‘t know. Can anyone relate? How do you know, like, that‘s it, this is you?

#asexual #aromantic #Ace #Depression

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It’s already frustrating how this society expects everyone to be s3x-hungry when it’s not even the reality. Way to make me feel at home (/sarc). I’m sex-positive, but I’m also realistic, and to be honest, I shouldn’t have to say it.

Not everyone wants to have s3x. Not everyone wants to have it as frequently as it is portrayed in the media. Or at all.

Saying that s3x is natural or is a natural feeling excludes asexuals and those on the ace-spectrum because of not feeling “standard” attraction (I’m ace-spec). It also invalidates those who are repulsed/aversed and those who are traumatized by sex (assault/molestation) and/or its media (not to be confused with sex-negative, a political counterpart to sex-positive). Not to mention, it feeds on the idea of alienating these individuals as “broken”, “unnatural”, and “disordered” (which the US literally labels it as a disorder 😡).

It may be natural to others, but not to everyone, and that is okay and 1000% valid!

Make it a place where those who are into s3x, those who aren’t into it, and those who are traumatized by it coexist with each other. Please! We need to be heard, too!! /srs

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I've faced confusion over my sexuality most my life. First I thought I was straight, then when I couldn't form relationships I presumed I was gay, as there was some sexual attraction there, but that didn't work out. I then identified as bisexual, but none of this was really me.

More recently I realised part of the problem is that I don't enjoy or desire sex. When I was growing up asexuality was not discussed, but as it became more openly discussed I feel this is me.

What I'm not sure about is whether autism is the reason I'm Asexual, as I'm not comfortable being close to people and am very awkward when trying to form relationships. Or whether my autism is irrelevant and not linked to my lack of sexual desire.

Do any of you feel conflicted and unsure about their sexuality? #AutismSpectrumDisorder

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I’ve discovered last week that I’m Asexual. Doing research about it, I find the terms panromantic, aromantic, etc. I’m struggling to figure out where I fall in the romantic part, because as silly as it sounds, as a 42 yr old woman, I don’t know how to define romantic. The dictionary wasn’t helpful. What does romantic mean with respect to this?
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Where to start?! I started with a new care coordinator just before Christmas, as my previous CPN had been promoted. (This will have made it 3 CCO’s in less than a YEAR.....) I have, however, physically, only seen her* meaning new CPN three times. The first time was at handover between CPN’s and myself and the second was just before Christmas and the last time was New Year’s Eve. I had a remote Care Plan Review with her and my psychiatrist on 4th Jan (the same day our Prime Minister put us on a national lockdown.)

I live on my own but do have my brother, sister-in-law and 3 nieces as my “support bubble” but currently seeing nobody face to face....

I’m unsure if it’s the fact my support has changed or been withdrawn *AGAIN*? I attend a recovery group twice weekly but they’ve stopped at present and am awaiting for the Therapeutic Community to restart which has been put on hold since March 2020 because of the obvious social distancing issues.

This lockdown seems so much more harder to cope with and I feel lonelier than ever.
Everything seems to be going round my head in a big messy fast paced bleurgh and just struggling to reach out I guess as “everyone’s in the same boat”

Sorry 😞

I missed my first class because I was so tired and decided to sleep instead (stupid stupid stupid)
I missed my bus to get keys from my friend to watch her cat and was 30 minutes later as a result
as a result of being 30 minutes late to my friends place, I missed chemistry class
my car is currently in the shop and I feel trapped and down.
doesn’t help that it’s valinetines day and I’m an #asexual who is super super single and has been lonely and down for years.

I’m just about to cry because of this. my mind feels like a jumbled mess of thoughts and worries and things I have to do. they are unorganized and all over the place and make me feel like I can’t do anything right.

I haven’t felt this down in years.

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