Meaning

I often think, not in a morbid kind of way what I want written on my gravestone. What encapsulates who I am in words. If anyone cares what I want, I want to be remembered with the words. She kept trying.

Had a therapy session this morning and aside from all the processing we talked about how to create meaning from the pain. I am still in the stages of doing this but it has made me less adamant about getting an apology or explanation from those that hurt me.

Creating meaning out of my experiences has taught me that it is okay to not get an apology. No one can tell me the meaning of my experiences. We are each the authors of our own stories. No one dictates what is and isn't traumatic for us. This really opened my eyes. I had so many people telling me what my experiences with abuse were and how I should feel about them.

Now I realize that only I can say what was traumatic and how I feel about it. I am the author of my own story and I can create whatever meaning I choose. I can end strong and know that I came out the other side. I can close this chapter and start a new one.

Though I am still healing and processing I can slowly create meaning from my experiences. I can piece together my story. I know the truth of what I went through and that is enough, even if it's not enough for others. I am enough and so are you.

What meaning will you make out of your experiences? Don't beat yourself up if you're still figuring that out just like I am, it's okay. Creating meaning takes time. And meanings change over time. This is okay. I hope my insight can help you today.

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Hi, my name is JohnChatzis. I'm here because I can listen to anything that happened to you. I have helped people in the past because I had a dark past with dark thoughts that almost made me end my life. I still have thoughts to share though. I am not a specialist. I have still things inside me that bother me and I feel lonely. I can help you help me and you can help me help you. Love

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Perhaps it is time to take some inventory of the meaning you have assigned to the things that keep you miserable, bring you comfort, etc.
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