PTSDfromAbuse

I just want to feel safe. I'm in bed with my husband, dog, and cat. We're safe, warm and happy. I'm even watching one of my favorite shows. Yet I feel a deep sense of unease and have for years. I haven't lived with my parents for the bulk of four years and they've lived thousands of miles away for almost two of those years. I know that's its deeper than simple safety it's a survival part of my brain that forgot what safe was but it's really all I want. #CPTSD #PTSD #PTSDfromAbuse #Livingwithptsd

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First things first
I'mma say all the words inside my head
I'm fired up and tired of the way that things have been, oh-ooh
The way that things have been, oh-ooh

Second thing second
Don't you tell me what you think that I can be
I'm the one at the sail, I'm the master of my sea, oh-ooh
The master of my sea, oh-ooh
I was broken from a young age
Taking my soul into the masses
Write down my poems for the few
That looked at me
Took to me, shook to me, feeling me
Singing from heart ache from the pain
Take up my message from the veins
Speaking my lesson from the brain
Seeing the beauty through the...

Pain!
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer

Pain!
You break me down, you build me up, believer, believer

Pain!
I let the bullets fly, oh let them rain
My luck, my love, my God, they came from...

Pain!
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer

Third things third
Send a prayer to the ones up above
All the hate that you've heard has turned your spirit to a dove, oh-ooh
Your spirit up above, oh-ooh
I was choking in the crowd
Living my brain up in the cloud
Falling like ashes to the ground
Hoping my feelings, they would drown
But they never did, ever lived, ebbing and flowing
Inhibited, limited
Till it broke up and it rained down
It rained down, like...

Pain!
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer

Pain!
You break me down, you built me up, believer, believer

Pain!
I let the bullets fly, oh let them rain

My luck, my love, my God, they came from...

Pain!
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer

Last things last
By the grace of the fire and the flames
You're the face of the future, the blood in my veins, oh-ooh
The blood in my veins, oh-ooh
But they never did, ever lived, ebbing and flowing
Inhibited, limited
Till it broke up and it rained down
It rained down, like...

Pain!
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer

Pain!
You break me down, you built me up, believer, believer

Pain!
I let the bullets fly, oh let them rain

My luck, my love, my God, they came from...

Pain!
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer

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In many of my anger, depressed, hurt, anxious, sad periods and I stop and make myself really think about why i feel so awful is because when I strip the issue all the way down, it almost always come down to the fact that I think Im a worthless piece of crap. I dont deserve any good things, people, luck. I am a waste of space and if i died, it would b a kind of relief to my closest ones. What do i do to actually believe that I am a worth person, Im a good, caring person #verballyabusivemother #verbalabuse #badchildhood

all my friends are gone, my husband told me a year ago he doesn’t like me, but, he does Love me. I feel so alone, and my Birthday is tomorrow . I am trying so hard to be brave, today I don’t feel brave. I FEEL LIKE A LOOSER.
#PTSDfromAbuse

I feel worthless and sad #PTSD #PTSDfromAbuse #DepressionAndMentalHealth