FailedBackSurgery

I'm in bed from pain, so thought I'd catch up here. This is one of the latest paintings I've done. I've started doing portrait commissions again too! Such a big step for me since i haven't in over a decade! I'm already in over my head, but I'm very happy to be working again. 😁 Thinking of myself last year this time, stuck in bed almost all the time and so depressed. It's just something I never thought I'd be able to do again. Thank you to all the mighty cheerleaders that have helped me to start living again! 💙 #FailedBackSurgery #spinalcordstimulator #SpinalStenosis #BackPain #neckpain #ChronicMigraines #PsoriaticArthritis #Depression #MiniStroke #AnkylosingSpondylitis

Hi everyone! My Wife loved the rainbow rose 😁 That made me really happy. I've got a new mp3 player for my birthday and it's amazing how it's made me feel creative again! One old song I'd forgotten about made me start this sketch the other night. He's the more real version of me (not in looks lol) But in a wheel chair, etc. I want to paint this eventually. #ChronicPain #chronicmigraine #ChronicFatigue #SpinalStenosis #BackPain #Wheelchair #Anxiety #FailedBackSurgery #spinalcordstimulator #AnkylosingSpondylitis

Thank you so much for everyone who wished me well and sent their love for my back procedure today 🤍🙏🏼 I hope this day has found you as well as possible. I feel so lucky to have so much amazing support and a soft, safe place to land ❤️you all are such a blessing.

Most of us have been on a very long road with our health/illness/pain journeys and can handle a lot. I’ve had 5 spinal fusion/si joint surgeries and today was my 31st outpatient procedure. I was not nervous, anxious or scared for this today. I was quite hopeful and eager for good results.

I can say that aside from my fusion surgeries, this was THE most painful injection/outpatient procedure I’ve ever had‼️I was wailing, flailing, bawling and asked for more sedation (didn’t get it) because felt like complete torture and agonizing pain ❌ after it was done the pain kicked up over a ten (I almost never use a ten) and at this point I was panicked and engulfed by this pain.😢

They left me with a caprisun juice and walked away, couldn’t get anyone to address what was happening. I texted my mom and she contacted the office manager. Then I did get a small IV of a pain med but it didn’t touch the pain, it was that bad. I asked to go home, in the car I had to use my rescue meds and it still didn’t help the pain.

I’m icing and now in bed snuggling with my Poppy girl 🐕I can only pray this result means the dr is in the right place. I remain hopeful but more uneasy about his next treatment plan. I need a long term solution… I can’t keep getting these painful injections with no pain relief. I will recouperate and recalibrate and come up with my next game plan✊🏼I’ve come too far to stop now.

My heart goes out to everyone struggling today or feeling frustrated and exhausted. We’re all in this together ❤️🙏🏼 Thanks so much for listening my mighty friends 🤍 #ChronicPain #BackPain #sciatica #SacroilliacJointPain #spinefracture #FailedBackSurgery #Anxiety #RheumatoidArthritis #MastCellActivationDisorder

Hoping for the luck of the Irish ☘️ today for some pain relief for all of us🙏🏼… I’m having another outpatient procedure for my back again today, number 4 for this year and number 31 in all. Which coincidentally will be my age next week on my birthday 🎉 Good sign I’m hoping?!🤞🏼

I’ve been in so much pain this past week again, level 9s everyday. It feels like my
Back and Hip are going to snap off and break. I’m seeing a new anesthesiologist/doctor who my surgeon absolutely loves and I got really good vibes from 🙌🏼 Today is another #SacroilliacJointPain injection, not expecting miracles but always hoping for the best. I’ll kindly take any and all of your positive vibes🥰

Poppy girl is already 6 months and is the best girl🐕. She licks my tears when I’m in sos pain. This will be the second procedure she’s rode along for this year. I’m so much braver with her nearby and so lucky to be her fur mama! She’s so sweet and caring. I already can’t wait for her to great me after my procedure is done💖

Have a great St Pattys🍀everyone and if it’s not great, that’s ok too. Just do your best and remember you aren’t alone, none of us are 🙌🏼🙏🏼🤍 #ChronicPain #BackPain #SacroilliacJointPain #sciatica #FailedBackSurgery #RheumatoidArthritis #MastCellActivationDisorder #Anxiety #Insomnia #MightyPets

Ppl assume that when you put yourself together and #fakeit everything is fine... that's the furthest thing from the truth. My face hides SOOOO much pain. Soooo much sadness. If your reading this please post a picture of your beautiful self. We don't have to suffer in silence. #Depression #Anxiety #PTSD #ChronicPain #ChildLoss #ComplicatedGrief #FailedBackSurgery #longlivebribri

This is me in an autoimmune flare and an injury flare, baring it all. I’m covered in rashes, my eyelids are swollen and I need a crutch to move even a few feet. My back injury is at its peak, I feel like my back is being broken in half all day everyday. I’ve been unable to get my pain under control and unable to get my rashes under control. I’m beyond exhausted, I’m inhaling fresh celery juice like it’s my day job. I have to hope it won’t always be like this, someday it’s got to get a little better. Until then I’m baring it all on here and doing the absolute best I can until this flare hurricane lets up. Might watch Avengers Endgame and get Burgerfi tonight, living it up large per USUAL🤷🏼‍♀️Hope everyone’s hangin in there tonight, fellow Mighties 👋🏼🖖🏼💪🏼👍🏼 #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #Injury #BackPain #FailedBackSurgery