Hi. Here's my deal:
#ThoracicOutletSyndrome #HypermobileTypeEDS #PosturalOrthostaticTachycardiaSyndrome #CervicalSpondylosis #Scoliosis #Tendonitis #EustachianTubeDysfunction #Asthma #Allergies #ChronicMigraines #Narcolepsy #ARFID #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #ADHD #Autism #Anxiety #PersistentDepressiveDisorder
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17 years ago I had 2 bad(on the inside) recreational accidents. I got thrown onto a lava outcropping by 2 hard rogue waves...two months later while sledding in the snow, we hit a deep divet, hard, the whiplash was a 20 on the pain scale of 10. But very little damage showed up on my body, rock cuts and bruises, all the rest was inside my body. Fast forward... I am a completely useless mass of bones, blood vessels, etc; I hardly qualify for the definition of a human.
My hubby has always been supportive and caring, truly I know I am the luckiest to have him.
BUT.... I am definitely getting weaker and the MDD, PDD are dragging me closer to the edge. We went to my neurologist yesterday for Botox, he went in with me,for the specific reason to get the dr to ok contrast in my next MRI. Today I found a passage that was pretty accurate at describing me.... I read it to my hubby and he replied that he didn't think it describes me, now.
WHAT THE 🤬🤯🤬 heck do I do, if he doesn't really "see me", the drs that never have, never will. I only have one answer...the one where no one will need to see me 🤯😱🤮💤💤💤💤permanent sleep. #NothingLeftInTheTank #63Feel93 #EFTH #🙏ForReliefOrDeath
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I've written before about how I was misdiagnosed as bipolar for a few decades, and the therapies and various prescription medicines never helped me. In fact, they nearly killed me.
In my last year on the meds, I got lithium toxicity, and was rushed to a trauma center a hundred miles from home, and spent a week in ICU. That was the autumn of 2021, and I am still recovering now in February 2023.
Yesterday I saw my third psychiatrist in a row who told me I had never been bipoloar, but I am Autistic. This time he put it all on paper, and entered it into my medical records. I guess that means it's official. Or maybe 'I' am official? Nah. I'm still just me.
I never had an inkling that I might be Autistic before sometime last summer, when I read a story in The Mighty by someone who found out accidentally that she was Autistic while she was having one of her children tested and assessed. When she described her life and her challenges, she sounded to me like she was describing my own life.
From that point onward, I started reading everything that I could get my hands on about the Autism Spectrum.
Then there were the internet tests, the books with tests, and finally talking to doctors and to Autistics.
Eventually, I was convinced beyond any reason of a doubt that I myself was, and am Autistic. Thereafter, I brought it up with my psychiatrist, and it took off from there.
That brings me back to yesterday, and the third psychiatrist to agree, and who added it into my medical record.
Now if I can get my General Practitioner to remove the bipolar label from my record there, I will feel like I can finally relax a little.
I don't have a problem with bipolar in itself. I just have a major problem with being misdiagnosed for decades and spending the bulk of my money on therapy and prescriptions that kept me physically exhausted and in a heavy mental fog for decades, and didn't help me in any way. I feel like the majority of my life was wasted.
So to have the label removed from my records is removing a constant painful reminder of all the life that I missed in my youth and middle age.
I am going to spend the rest of my years as a happy, grateful Autistic old dude. Peace be with you all.
♾️♾️♾️
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#Autistic #actuallyautistic #audhd #ADHD #Autism #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #AutismAcceptance #Stimming #Dysgraphia #dyscalcula #pathologicaldemandavoidance #PDA #AutisticInertia #AutisticBurnout
#EFD #ExecutiveFunctionDisorder #executivedysfunction #RejectionSensitiveDysphoria #RSD
#ReactiveAttachmentDisorder #rad #MajorDepressiveDisorder #MDD #Dysthymia #Specialinterest
#Hyperfocus #hypervigilant #SensoryOverstimulation #SensoryIssues #SensoryPain
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I've written before about how I was misdiagnosed as bipolar for a few decades, and the therapies and various prescription medicines never helped me. In fact, they nearly killed me.
In my last year on the meds, I got lithium toxicity, and was rushed to a trauma center a hundred miles from home, and spent a week in ICU. That was the autumn of 2021, and I am still recovering now in February 2023.
Yesterday I saw my third psychiatrist in a row who told me I had never been bipoloar, but I am Autistic. This time he put it all on paper, and entered it into my medical records. I guess that means it's official. Or maybe 'I' am official? Nah. I'm still just me.
I never had an inkling that I might be Autistic before sometime last summer, when I read a story in The Mighty by someone who found out accidentally that she was Autistic while she was having one of her children tested and assessed. When she described her life and her challenges, she sounded to me like she was describing my own life.
From that point onward, I started reading everything that I could get my hands on about the Autism Spectrum.
Then there were the internet tests, the books with tests, and finally talking to doctors and to Autistics.
Eventually, I was convinced beyond any reason of a doubt that I myself was, and am Autistic. Thereafter, I brought it up with my psychiatrist, and it took off from there.
That brings me back to yesterday, and the third psychiatrist to agree, and who added it into my medical record.
Now if I can get my General Practitioner to remove the bipolar label from my record there, I will feel like I can finally relax a little.
I don't have a problem with bipolar in itself. I just have a major problem with being misdiagnosed for decades and spending the bulk of my money on therapy and prescriptions that kept me physically exhausted and in a heavy mental fog for decades, and didn't help me in any way. I feel like the majority of my life was wasted.
So to have the label removed from my records is removing a constant painful reminder of all the life that I missed in my youth and middle age.
I am going to spend the rest of my years as a happy, grateful Autistic old dude. Peace be with you all.
♾️♾️♾️
🖖
#Autistic #actuallyautistic #audhd #ADHD #Autism #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #AutismAcceptance #Stimming #Dysgraphia #dyscalcula #pathologicaldemandavoidance #PDA #AutisticInertia #AutisticBurnout
#EFD #ExecutiveFunctionDisorder #executivedysfunction #RejectionSensitiveDysphoria #RSD
#ReactiveAttachmentDisorder #rad #MajorDepressiveDisorder #MDD #Dysthymia #Specialinterest
#Hyperfocus #hypervigilant #SensoryOverstimulation #SensoryIssues #SensoryPain
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I have been looking back at all of my diagnoses. And they explain why I am the way that I am because of thought patterns and mood disorders. I am fascinated at how many problems I have and they explain why I have a more difficult time functioning. Every day is difficult because A) I have to have everything in its proper place, B) I am dependent on others for reassurance, safety, and to help care for myself, C) I am avoidant of meeting new people and new experiences, D) I have a constant depression that is being controlled by sertraline, E) I have mood swings which are controlled by Abilify and F) I have PMDD which is controlled by Depoprovera injections. It’s a difficult road having all these problems. I managed to change a negative thought loop which has made me feel better and more positive so that is a win. Cognitive behavioral therapy and my counselor are a big help with changing my mind and coping with my problems.
#obsessivecompulsivetraits #severesocialanxiety #PersistentDepressiveDisorder
#clusterCpersonalitydisorder
#Schizophrenia
#SchizoaffectiveDisorder #PMDD
#CognitiveBehavioralTherapy
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It's almost my birthday. I hate my birthday. No one ever remembers or makes plans unless it's me. I've knowingly be coping, fighting persistent depressive disorder, major depressive disorder and anxiety for 24 years. I've lost count of the number of therapists I've seen. There was only one who could see through when I was faking happy. I've had several psychiatrists and lost count of the different medications that I've tried. Nothing seems to work. The depression is winning. I'm so tired. Life has been a battlefield and for the first time I'm sure how much fight I've got left in me. #PersistentDepressiveDisorder #Depression #Anxiety
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Sent from app I’ve been going through a lot recently. I got on a really great medication, figured out I’m probably autistic, and got everything sorted for school. I thought at least. I may not have given myself enough time to make sure I have the money to pay for school and it starts in a week and payments due on the 4th. Im 23 I’m already starting off so late into adulthood. I wouldn’t graduate until I’m 25 so if someone can tell me the next thing to do I’m freaking out right now I know it’s not the end of the world but I’m so disappointed in myself and I feel so stuck and paralyzed and I just don’t know what to do next and what if this the best I can do? Then what? Im stuck and don’t know what to do. #PersistentDepressiveDisorder
my depression diagnosis has been changed 4 times since the initial diagnosis approx 50 years ago; does anyone else know where I am coming from, the most recent tests revealed dysthymia, a persistent low level, sometimes chronic condition that can make it hard to even stand up from a sitting position .very tedious, very hard to deal with.
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Healthcare providers name depression types according to symptoms and causes. These episodes often have no obvious cause. In some people, they can linger much longer than in others for no clear reason.
Types of depression include:
Major depressive disorder (MDD): Major depression (clinical depression) has intense or overwhelming symptoms that last longer than two weeks. These symptoms interfere with everyday life.
Bipolar depression: People with bipolar disorder have alternating periods of low mood and extremely high-energy (manic) periods. During the low period, they may have depression symptoms such as feeling sad or hopeless or lacking energy.
Perinatal and postpartum depression: “Perinatal” means around birth. Many people refer to this type as postpartum depression. Perinatal depression can occur during pregnancy and up to one year after having a baby. Symptoms go beyond “the baby blues,” which causes minor sadness, worry or stress.
Persistent depressive disorder (PDD): PDD is also known as dysthymia. Symptoms of PDD are less severe than major depression. But people experience PDD symptoms for two years or longer.
Premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD): Premenstrual dysphoric disorder is a severe form of premenstrual disorder (PMS). It affects women in the days or weeks leading up to their menstrual period.
Psychotic depression: People with psychotic depression have severe depressive symptoms and delusions or hallucinations. Delusions are beliefs in things that are not based in reality, while hallucinations involve seeing, hearing, or feeling touched by things that aren’t actually there.
Seasonal affective disorder (SAD): Seasonal depression, or seasonal affective disorder, usually starts in late fall and early winter. It often goes away during the spring and summer.
You can refer to this:
2 reactions One of my worst symptoms of depression and anxiety is having very little energy. My normal energy level is low compared to average and i mostly manage, especially now that i work from home and no longer have to spend energy communiting or interacting with people at the office all day. But my energy can also plummet from low to zero when i either don’t stick to my normal slower pace or when i am dealing with extra stress. I have been in the middle of a long depressive episode for several months now which has prompted first one med change, and now another (it’s too early to tell but the second med seems to be a bit better). Then a few additional stressor came up at work this week. I worked through them and things are better on that front. But today i am zonked. Just utterly exhausted. And while i can defintiely rest today, this chronic low energy really makes it difficult to enjoy things. Because after my basic self care (cooking, chores, bathing) I don’t have a lot left over to do something purely for me to enjoy.
I’m mostly okay, sometimes it’s just hard coming up against your own limits.
#Depression #PersistentDepressiveDisorder #MajorDepressiveDisorder #SocialAnxiety #Anxiety #Selfcare #MentalHealth
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