luck

I have a #Daydream where I find the right #Job and lose my #unemployment and work 40 hours a week. It sounds like a #nightmare because a 40 hour work week is #scary for me. It takes away so much time from #Selfcare and #Recovery that it brings me to a point of #tears .

I began to do the whole #comparing myself to others and #Wondering why I could not be like another. I truly feel #helpless whenever I become #jobless

It is difficult for me to find a #Job that can work with a #Disability and not feel #stigmitized by my #employer secretly. I feel like I am this cat in the photo, in my own #World where everything around me is just blowing up. It is not that I do not #Care anymore, but it is that there is only so much I can do. I might as well take normal pictures along the way and try to be as #normal in my #Abnormal world possible.

Perhaps a "vocational" center will be #helpfull in finding a #Career rather than just a job... But I do not know how much #Stigma exists. I suppose I am just #afraid and at the same time #Brave for keeping applying and trying.

Wish me #luck !

Today I woke up feeling good. I made myself gorgeous as always! I logged into work and on my 15min walk I came across a feather! I’m very attracted to birds so I knew this was a sign from the divine that despite my mental status and my circumstances things are going to be better soon! I’ve worked hard and I deserve all great things coming my way! Plus last night I prayed a little longer! 😌🙏🏽🙌🏽
To those who are feeling low I pray you keep going! I pray you find something to hold on to! Not everyday for me is good so today I choose to embrace this feeling!
#feathers #goodluck

#notwant #luck