Is my mother manipulative? Or am I just anxious? #SocialAnxiety #Anxiety
Recently I have been thinking about this. I know it’s weird because why would a mother want to manipulate her daughter? Hopefully someone experienced in this will be able to give me some advice and hopefully this is not a trigger for anyone. This morning I had some minor dispute with my mother. After that I feel that she avoid talking to me. I still get my meals, but she did not talk to me at all, she wasn’t showing any unhappiness on her face, she was talking to everyone else and enjoying herself. This afternoon I cried while writing my journal. She walked in to ask if I wanted dinner. I shaked my head, I couldn’t speak from the crying. She walked out quickly, took her dinner and started watching a movie on the television. She should have saw me cry. I wonder whether she is trying to tell me that she will show any concern for me even if I am having an anxiety attack if I do anything that upsets her. Not the first time that she made me feel that way, and she react differently everytime I cry, sometimes she would show me concern but sometimes she just do this. She treats other family members the same way too. My father was unhappy that she have not been cooking dinner, and made a remark that she should be free to make dinner since she is a housewife. My mother made him cook dinner on Sundays, he have not cooked for years, and she would not tell him if she realise he is making some mistakes, when his dish turn out badly, she would seem happy and would use the chance to throw sarcasm at him. When my younger sister would not listen to her, she would ignore my younger sister and become friendly with me. Now that I think of it, I wonder whether my social anxiety developed under 26 years of manipulation. Is this manipulation? Or am I just too sensitive because of my social anxiety? What should I do? I feel scared at this thought, scared that I would find out that my mother is manipulative, also scared that I would realise I am just a failed daughter who don’t even trust her mother. Please help me, thank you.
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