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I just wanted to let everyone know a little about my present life at the moment. My girls and I are preparing to head out on vacation in 2 weeks and I've been spending a lot of time working on my new website misunderstoodchaos.com

Feel free to stop by and check out the new posts. I've also been getting ready for summer semester to start back up. I'm actually ready to tackle classes again. This mental health break has been life changing and I'm grateful for the growth, but I'm ready to get back to living!!

Having woken up one morning to the news of the passing of a beloved uncle when I was 12. I am sure has affected a large part of my adult life as I try to go on with life. What came from that experience was the ability to sit in my room and allow my feelings and emotions to pour itself onto a blank sheet of paper. Experience the gift of poetry, not from an educated or literature sense but just the act of being, of doing it. Feeling where I was in the moment and allow myself to share what I was feeling in a journal. I think that is why social media has become so powerful in today's world and mental illnesses have been on the rise. I have been caught in thay as well with the distraction away from sitting down with myself and my thoughts and a blank piece of paper. The great thing about Journaling is there are no grades, no judgements and no critiques on what you write :)

#keepajournal #Write

What you see up there, are my best friends
My journals 🖊📖

I wasn’t really interested in journalizing when i started therapy
After my meeting my new therapist, i began discovering this great activity of getting all what’s on your head out 💗
What’s even more beautiful is the fact that you’ll tell most of what you wrote to your therapist
Meaning that you’ll share what you wrote with someone trustworthy and loving your work

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My mind is what directs my pen as i sail through high and low waves of my emotions and thoughts

I go through hard storms, waves, and thunders

I face all of this with a kind heart, listening to my sweet fav songs list and letting the wave guide me through the safest spots in my mind

After all, i reach my destination with passion by letting everything behind

Letting everything sink in the ocean’s deep water

Finally i’m on my safe place ..

Having as a result the most beautiful poems, quotes, and beautiful feelings
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Writing comforts me, and makes me feel safe and relaxed

It’s like getting your mind back
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #Anxiety #Journaling #Write

I NEED A BACK UP GENERATOR

Gimme some of that glossy gasoline
Dark fumes threaten ecstasy
Injure me while I crank you up
Deafen me with your cries
I drip sweat with glee
In hopes that this

Back up generator will do the trick.

But FOR THE LOVE OF GOD
WAKE UP BODY use this painful generator
Please just wake up.
Poison me daily
Anything to be the old me.
I don’t know what killed my main generator
I remember it vividly
It just
died.
Ten years since I’ve searched
For a back up generator
I’ve tried
Painful
Harmful
Shameful
Treatments to no avail.

If this feels undone
It’s because it is.

#MightyPoets #IdiopathicHypersomnia #Sleepy #Narcolepsy #Sleep #Energy #Fatigue #ChronicIllness #chronic #Wakeup #SleepingSickness #MightyTogether #Write #writer