NeverGiveUp

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I hope this resonates with someone who needs it! I feel like I’ve started over and it’s something I am working on daily. I fear rejection every day #NeverGiveUp #imhereforeveryone #aworkinprogress #hopefulmeme #Bipolar2 #PTSD #learningtoletgo #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety

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As people with mental illnesses. Everything is harder. From studying for a degree. To maintaining a healthy relationship with your partner,family, friends. It’s hard to have an awareness of yourself. Be disciplined and keep your illness. Becoming a burden to others as you know. How misunderstood we can be with our actions. So in return we are loyal. More loving to does that accept our authentic self. But what happens when you hold on to a relationship. That becomes toxic because they know you. The real you. How hard, it is to start a friendship with someone. When do you disclose your mental illness? To me it takes time,to allow someone into my inner sanctum .
When do stop trying to loose weight to a society’s standards? Knowing that it’s affecting your health. The extra workouts that lead to injury. The goal that you continue to fail? The money invested on a dream in creative arts. When do you start to realize you need to give up? When what you’re doing is affecting your overall mental health. When you stubbornly refuse to give up. You run into dangerous situations leading to a crisis. Even if it’s positive. The fact is when you obsess over that goal. You will go through unnecessary stress and anxiety and finally psycally illness.
When do you give up? You don’t. You stop look all around and see how far you’re journey has led you. Check your mental compass and redirect your thoughts towards your journey. Just like you stop to look or ask for directions. You should stop and ask your therapist to help you see things clearly and different ways toward a new direction.

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Yesterday, I shared how my mornings go. Today I will elaborate on why "Every Morning" is so very exhausting.

I've been in the mental hospital more times than I would like to admit. However before that, I went to college majoring in biology and neuroscience. I wanted to understand my chronic issues and "fix me".

Unfortunately, I did not find for what I was looking. Going through several different specialists, I found some diagnosis (treatment resistant depression, generalized anxiety disorder, a circadian rhythm disorder, sleep apnea mixed in with a bit of obsessive compulsive disorder and perfectionism).

I never found a medication or medication combination that revolutionized my life. I found many coping mechanisms that helped like medication, a proper diet, journaling, blue light therapy, talk therapy, yoga, dance, deep breathing techniques, transcranial magnetic stimulation therapy (TMS), acupuncture, Chinese herbs, teas and lately, homeopathy.

However, as I alluded to earlier life happens and you are left flat broke (literally), unable to pay for most of these services. For example, due to my mental health, I had to leave graduate school and move in with my parents. My business failed, and at this point no one will hire me. My ex-husband left because he couldn't support us (along with a mental breakdown of his own). So, I am left alone, depressed, anxious, unemployed, living with my parents, picking up the pieces fighting the strong urge to just give up. Did I mention I my mornings are actually afternoons? (More on that later.)

Yes, this is officially a "Cry Me a River" post. However, that's why I joined this platform. I officially have no one to really talk to or in my case 'vent'. However, I think that is why we are all here. Am I right? Let's get all of our problems out in the open and support each other?

Well, I definitely hope that is the case because most 'normal people' look at me, when they hear my story and say, "I am praying for you". They also say, "I am sending you good vibes".

That's all very nice and appreciated but I am sincerely looking for the support and strength to keep going. I want to keep finding the good things in life, the joy, the wonder, the excitement, anything that makes my life worth living. I don't want to give into the perpetual desire to clock out of the human race. (Not that there is any guarantee things will be better on the other side, just saying.)

As Angelica Hudson says to Drew Barrymore in "Ever After" (It's a really sweet movie by the way.) "No matter how bad things may get, they can always get worse."

It's up to me to make it better and that's a hard concept to swallow. It's just me against this crazy spinning rock. :/

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