struggling

I haven’t been doing so well lately, in my previous post I said that I thought I had a better relationship with the pain. When the nerve pain flares up or there is any medium plus change in where the pain is located I lose it. The doctors and the physical therapist tell me that this pain and these flare ups are just the normal part of rehabilitation of the sciatic nerve, and I know it’s true. But, I spend all day everyday thinking about it and I know that’s not normal. When I try to sleep I sometimes think I’m in a good place and then wake up an hour or two later with rising anxiety and I sit with general anxiety all day which I know isn’t good for my health. It might be time to try something different, I don’t know whether to try gabapentin or Zoloft. My therapist says Gabapentin and my family says Zoloft.
#struggling #BackPain #MentalHealth

Just this week I added a chore to Friday. I'm supposed to break down some boxes. I gotta be honest I don't want to do shit today. I feel really yucky and I'm so tired. But at the same time I want flutter to be proud of me. So it's a struggle. I'm starting to get a migraine again too. I can probably sit in the kitchen where the boxes are and just smoosh them down. There's gotta be about 20 boxes. *Sigh*

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I'm really struggling. I'm in a severely emotionally abusive relationship and he has known about my mental health struggles since we first met. Now he uses them against me. I'm at the end of my rope. I have nowhere to escape to, no finances due to becoming disabled and he's literally driving me to snap. He has the whole neighborhood believing I'm crazy because he would purposely antagonize me to the point of a panic attack, then would sit and watch me spiral out of control then went and pretended that he has been this amazing and supportive man, that I'm abusing him and mistreating him. Today I was told I need help that I'm completely nuts, wacko, wack job, psycho, disturbed, completely screwed up in the head... I've literally given up everything and sacrificed everything for this man. I have bent over backwards, and it's been a complete nightmare. He knows I have nowhere else to go, I can't get an appointment with my psychiatrist because I already owe them and can't pay, and lost my insurance. I don't know what to do

Even though you know a lot of people struggle it makes you feel like you’re the only one :( who feels abnormal. Anyone else feel like this? Hard to accept being an anxious person I hate it.

#Anxiety #isolating #sad #Upset #struggling #Trying

Sometimes I get nice breaks from anxiety and everything is smooth sailing ⛵️ but other times it comes back and is a constant nuisance wether it’s physical symptoms or just mental and that voice in my head trying to sabotage me. Any tips for when you find anxiety makes you feel dumb and silly for struggling with it? Sometimes it can be the smallest of things and it makes you feel shame vulnerable and stigma. #Anxiety #help #struggling #Support #ideas #coping #Shame #Stigma #mighty #TheMighty #MightyTogether