The negative side of being a hyper sensitive person in public
I went into the pharmacy to pick up some prescriptions and knew immediately it was not the day to test the waters of my agoraphobia.
A few triggers of my phobia is going into stores, walking outside, seeing my neighbors. I can go to a concert and get lost in music, but not into the grocery store to get anything. Seems a bit strange, no?
Then again, there is not much that is ordinary about me.
Allow me to continue the pharmacy story. I walked in, and immediately felt panic. I felt every emotion all at once and it took my breath away. I get to the counter, and this is where it intensifies even more so. I forget my birthday, fumble with my wallet and then he tells me it will be a few minutes. I lost it. I ran into the bathroom and sobbed. I waited until I heard my name, and when paying, I dropped my wallet and its contents onto the ground.
I know I should not allow these moments to feed into my anxiety, but when I go out into public, I have my own anxiety to deal with and then take on others as well.
I have always been a chameleon of sorts. I literally feel the room I am in, and in public areas, it's too much.
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