chronicbackpain

I have a major spine surgery quickly approaching this Friday 3/3/23 and l'm extremely anxious. I just had a different type of spine surgery 6/22/22. Something just feels different this time and I can't seem to wrap my mind around it. I keep having nightmares that I’m going to wake up from surgery paralyzed. I didn’t have nightmares or anxiety before my last spine surgery. It makes sense and it’s valid, but it just seems odd to me. In total, this will be my 13th surgery, I’m generally not anxious about surgeries or procedures (colonoscopies and endoscopies every 1-2 years for the last 29 years). It definitely doesn’t help that I’m also in a Crohn’s flare currently. Getting to the bathroom quickly can be very challenging after spine surgery, I learned that from the first surgery. Sitting on the toilet is very uncomfortable/difficult also.

⭐️❤️Any words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated, I'm having trouble escaping/controlling my mind right now.⭐️❤️

Photo is of myself with my awesome Service Dog Onyx, he makes living life much easier for me. 🐕‍🦺

I've had some difficulties finding groups that are active here, so I'm not even sure where to post or where this post will end up. I'm not giving up on finding people to connect with though.

#MightyTogether #SpinalStenosis #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #ChronicPain #chronicbackpain #Arthritis #DegenerativeDiscDisease #PanicDisorder #MajorDepressiveDisorder #CrohnsDisease #InflammatoryBowelDiseaseIBD #ChronicSpinePain #Anxiety #Insomnia #Nightmares #PTSD #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder

New diagnosis: POTS. Was on ivabradine for a few weeks and ever since I’ve come off it my heart rate hasn’t been happy. For some reason my blood pressure has suddenly become normal after being low for months. Not complaining, just very confused.

Went for an MRI last week for my sinuses, said it would be about a week for results but still waiting. On the bright side, that probably means it’s not (too) bad news. I’m glad I pushed to see them earlier though, because I caught a cold from my housemate and it caused hell with them. Constant congestion, migraines, lack of appetite, nausea, coughing, and I took about the same amount of painkillers in a week that I had taken in the last few months/ maybe even a year (I am VERY opposed to them & chronic pain has left me with a high pain tolerance anyway).

Waiting on GERD referral & have heard nothing. Doctor prescribed a PPI but didn’t put it on repeat and the progress made on it was lost when I had to fight for a week to get it re-prescribed after I had ran out.

Chronic pain has been quite a struggle. I’m concerned about the increase in occurrence of pain so I booked a routine doctors appointment. Also having a flare up of my foot pain (tears when walking) so it’s just an extra thing I get to deal with.

And on top of all that, trying to keep my mental state okay and making it look like I’m okay to everyone else. It’s all just really exhausting, but there’s this quote that I remember a lot (but will probably get it wrong slightly): “it takes ten times longer to put yourself together than to fall apart”

Okay, I’ll finish this with some better news. I’m cleared 1 year post-op and hearing loss is confirmed not to be an issue anymore. It was borderline but I’ll take the W. I also had my two jabs, perks of being disabled I guess.

#ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #Surgery #Postop #MentalHealth #Migraines #PosturalOrthostaticTachycardiaSyndrome
#GastroesophagealRefluxDisease #HearingLoss #Depression #InvisibleIllness #Disability #Disabled #BackPain #chronicbackpain #Lowbloodpressure #BloodPressure

Does anyone else feel ABSOLUTELY knackered and wrecked after speaking with a GP?

(U.K.: GP=> General Practitioner or primary physician, sometimes you have a GP you always go to, but due to limited resources, often it's an appointment with whomever is free 🤷🏿‍♀️)

Finally plucked up the courage to ask about the process of getting an ADHD assessment and the condescension.... was unreal 🤣

Does anyone else pray daily to have the funds to go private? Then feels guilty and laments the privatisation of your beloved National Health Service? 🥲 And overstretched and exhausted medical staff?

#IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS #Fibromyalgia #ChronicDepression #ChronicPain #ChronicFatigue #chronicbackpain #BackPain #Depression #Anxiety #AuditoryProcessingDisorder #HearingLoss #Insomnia

So recently I had a conversation with someone about this brain chip Elon Musk is perfecting. Their answer was hell no.

My answer he’ll yes......

If they can control my pain receptors....I’m in.
If they can control my arthritis....I’m in.
If they can control my sleep apnea....I’m in.
If they can control my chronic back pain....I’m in.
If they can control my self harming....I’m in.
If they can control all the things my bipolar controls....I’m in

On top of that, if they can give me the ability to understand other languages and maybe speak them as well....I’m in.
If the interaction part they’re on about, let’s me interact with my computer and car....wowsers....I’m in.

Above all, I know I’m older than most on here, (I think), if it lets me lead a long and fruitful life ....I’m in.

I don’t need to be brighter or massively intelligent. I don’t need to be earning tons of money. Hell I don’t need much to make me happy.....but boot bipolar and pain from my life then.....I’m in.

So if anyone on here has the ear of Mr Musk.....please tell him I’m a willing human trial for his chip. I can’t pay for one but I sure as hell can be an advertisement if it works. If I die in the process, then no worries. I’ve had more goes over the years and he will just be doing it better.

#ElonMusk #Bipolar #Borderline #BipolarDisorder #Borderline Bipolar depression #Arthritis #Pain #Headaches #chronicbackpain