eating issues

TW Mentions of fat-shaming, swearing, bugs, some all caps, misgendering, exclusionism #venting
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Seriously, why does this damn society seem to think that just because you look overweight instantly leads to believing they have health problems or the only ones capable of health problems? You can look skinny, or average, or look really healthy (even have a bunch of muscles!) and can - still - have health problems regarding weight or how you eat.

Now I’m remembering someone in 2018 who just came up to me and was very kind and told me their way of how they lost weight. I was just sitting there, minding my own business. I thought that they were being very nice and just giving advice, and now I feel like a fucking fool because it was JUST BECAUSE I LOOKED OVERWEIGHT!

Today, it honestly doesn’t help that when I’m told how I should eat or exercise, I get imposter syndrome all over again. I’m an adult. I already suffer from anxiety and despise this ridiculous judgemental ignorant world. I know I’m overweight. When I’ve had enough of life, I have the urge for comfort food. I know what I’m eating isn’t really that healthy, I admit that, and I’ve always TOLD myself that I should eat healthy, not to look skinnier, but to at least be healthier, and had even made plans to cut out some thing I should eat.…it’s hard. I have a lot of shit going on right now. Does society even understand that?!

I’m already stressed that the weather is already getting warmer here than I like, which means more bugs (flies, gnats) and possibly fleas again, so I’m trying to plan the best way to make this problem not so irritating including doing things that my sister continuously says that I shouldn’t do which also fucking irritates me to max (tying the garbage bags… it keeps the gnats away and I even SAID that I’ll buy more bags for us). Last summer was horrible and I do NOT want it to come. Spring is also about to betray me as well.

I am non-binary and have severe social gender dysphoria and hate being misgendered as a fucking “she”, which means I mostly stay inside all the time because of how painful it is.

I suffer from trust issues because of how much the world is a piece of garbage. “Cringe” this, “snowfl*king” that, “faking” this, seriously. Why.

My sister’s kids are on spring break and their loud footsteps irritate my autism whether or not I like to admit that.. trying to not to seem like I hate them (which I don’t, I love them!!). And all I’m trying to do is to get myself CALM.

Those are just four things. There are many more I can list. So even trying to be healthy is a struggle either because of poor mental health or that I’ve given up at that moment. I want to live… but it’s to eat healthy or exercise because of all of this crap. Does society even understand that?!

#MyAutismIsNotADisorder #Fatshaming #fat #Overweight #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety #ImposterSyndrome #DearSociety #nonbinary #EatingDisorders #EatingIssues #eating #EatingHealthyIsNotEasy #MentalHealth #LGBTQIA #BeingHealthyIsNotEasy #sad #BodyShaming #BodyImage

So hello I’m new here I struggle with chrons disease IBS and ulcerative colitis, I’ve been diagnosed since 2012 but still find myself struggling to eat, I go a day or two without eating and when I finally do I feel sick and get super nauseous. #chrons disease #InflammatoryBowelDiseaseIBD #UlcerativeColitis #EatingIssues

I still don't quite know how to navigate or where to post my thoughts sometimes but here I am so here goes.

I was diagnosed type 2 only to have been misdiagnosed to type 1 or I think I'm insulin resistant. Cue the panic attacks I have. I've been getting better with them but it's still a struggle. Panic attacks make me physically sick. Throw in the fact that my body isn't telling me things like when I'm full until I've over eaten. When I feel I have over eaten I feel nausea, then I feel panic as I feel I'm going to vomit (I've had precious issues with not being able to stop vomiting and its sent me to the hospital, I'm two months free though) so I worry I'm going to go to the hospital then I panic. Where am I going with this? Well normally when I feel this way, especially if I do get sick, I need to medicate myself. Today was a different day but a win. I realized the signs, I took a walk with a coworker, it helped a bit but didn't get through it completely, I don't know how I pulled myself out of it but I did. I didn't get sick and I didn't have to medicate myself. I call this a win. Will things be different next time? Probably. I think I need to portion my meals better to get a handle on this. I'm open to suggestions on how I can get myself through this. Thank you for listening.

#MentalHealth #Anxiety #PanicAttack #Win #AnxietyMedication #Medication #Diabetes #DiabetesType1 #EatingIssues

There are times where I simply cannot eat. I try to and then immediately have the urge to throw up but just end up gagging. It doesn’t happen everyday but it comes in waves. It’s not stress related or emotions related though. I try to eat slow but that doesn’t help. I take adhd meds but since it doesn’t happen everyday I’m unsure if that is the issue. Does anyone have any ideas or feel the same? #Undiagnosed #EatingIssues

Since I began pristiq and lamictal, I have gained around 25 pounds.

This is highly concerning for me as I’ve been subject to fat shaming and bullying, as well as gossip at the hands of relatives and friends.

I’ve also found that with my ongoing treatment, it is not easy for me to walk around or partake in physically demanding tasks, I’m mostly on bed rest.

In this case, I’ve been prescribed metformin, but it has a very drastic diet change that comes with it. Otherwise I find it hard to digest my meals.

Any suggestions on potential options for me? Are there ways to keep a more healthy focus on my body mass whilst being treated using these medications? Keep in mind that I have deep emotional eating patterns that I’m not yet resolving.

#EatingIssues

In my counselling session, my therapist said to me “sometimes it’s easier to just let yourself be sad because it takes too much energy in trying to make yourself feel better”. It made me think about how half the time when I’m feeling down that I just let it happen. It’s true, the energy i don’t have from my lack of sleep and lack of eating makes me exhausted from moving from one part of the house to another. My lack of interest for things I normally love is only stronger. I turn my laptop on to complete my work but I never get past the Lock Screen. How can I push myself to do things that need to be done when I can even take care of myself. How can I be happy when all I feel is tiredness and sadness and I can’t find the energy or drive within me to change that. How am I meant to get better when the one good thing in my life can’t help me make changes. #Depression #Anxiety #Insomnia #EatingIssues

My eating is so screwed up. What the fuck do I do?! #DisorderedEating #EatingIssues